Is This Borderline Personallity Disorder ?

[nasdaq]

Hi, I have been dealing with some issues for the past two years. I'm a 14 year old male and nothing traumatic has happened in these past years and I wondering if i might be schizophrenic. I've been diagnosed with bipolar, ODD, and depression since last year. But lately people have been extra worried about me. I really dont see anything wrong with me. I've been doing these things since I was a 5 but no one said anything then. Well, anyways, I've been talking in a British accent everywhere I go (just for the fun of it), people have been telling me that I dont make sense when I talk and I've been singing to the top of my lungs to every song I can think of (I really dont know why). I've suddenly started to hate my brother and be very self-centered. My child doctor thought it was just me beng smart and creative because I had a very high I.Q. So they just put me in gifted classes but I still think its something other than that, I become very obsessive with things.I've stopped cutting my hair and I go on eating binges and the binges last for weeks where I eat too much or where I dont eat enough. Im really paranoid and I always think someone is trying to do something to me all the time which is why I'm so mean and defensive. I've been very manipulative and I havent been going to school all year. I'm very touchy on too many subjects and I hate talking about things unless I'm going to be the only one talking. I wake up in the evenings and stay up till 7:00 in the morning. I act like i'm a different person usually because I'm bored and when I'm bored I think of crazy things. People have been telling me that I'm having diva-ish ways. I curse a lot for no reason and my head has been really swimmng lately. I take remron, abilify, and paxil but they just make me go to sleep. It seems that this has all happened at once. I'm really critical and talk about people in front of there face or behind theyre back. What is it ? Could it be hereditary since my younger sister is bipolar, has depression, ODD, and ADD and my father is a recovering alcoholic ? I really dont know whats going on. If you coud help I would really appreciate it. Ive also had 5 surgeries on my head in 3 years for headaches could that also be it ? I have no emotions or feelings towards anyone and I laugh at sad or bad things. Could this be schizophrenia or some kinda borderline personality disorder ?  

[Twitch744]

Hi, hope you're well.

Many of the things you mentioned do sound like BPD and this may even explain why you have been diagnosed with so many different health problems as some of the feelings and behaviour seen in those other categories are seen in BPD.  

I wouldn't worry about your behaviour when you're bored (acting like someone else, singing, British accent, thinking of 'crazy things') as these things are done by many people and chances are the more intelligent you are, the more it takes to entertain you.  Some people are paid to do that stuff don't forget!  Those 'crazy things' you think of could just be a sign of creativity, unless of course they are of a disturbing nature.
About the laughing at inappropriate times, it may simply be that you know that it's an inappropriate time to laugh which many people find hillarious!  I dn't know how many times i've laughed at Church or in a crowded library!

It sounds like you have seen your fair share of psychiatrists, but it might be time to speak to a counsellor or psychologist about some of things that are troubling you, things that are important to YOU.

To be honest, there really is not enough information here to tell you what exactly is happening and I tend to shy away from diagnosis.
I have a MSc in psychology and prefer not to diagnose.  I prefer to ask you what it is you are unhappy about.

If you are unhappy about the way you feel or some of your behaviour it is up to you to find out what to do about it and work hard at it, but a counsellor or psychologist can help.

There is one thing I would like to point out though - you mentioned your sister has had mental health problems and your father is a recovering alcoholic.  Now this is no reflection on you, but it does sound like you have grown up in a difficult, stressful environment and you may have learned some innovative ways to get noticed and get help and attention from adults.  You do seem to be quite intelligent so I think that would be a good place to start your exploration.  Basically what i'm saying is can you think of other ways to achieve the things that those behaviours that you are unahppy with also achieve?  Do YOU think you are being 'diva-ish', and if so, what does it get you and is there a way to achieve that that you find more comfortable?

[diemyn]

Well, you described myself at that age. Examine your ego and separate it from you. I'd get off of any and all medication. The medical community does exist to help anyone. I had all these crazy thoughts that I took to be paranoia, but as it turns out they were just truths that I hadn't discovered yet. As for the defensiveness and hate: you know what?a lot of people are out to get you. Not cuz they are secret service agents, but cause they are sheep people, or sheeple if you will, and they fear and dislike anyone or anything they cannot understand. There are folks who'd never dream of even singing out loud, much less at the top of their lungs, but fear is holding them back. Try to recognize fear in yourself and in others so that you can grab it by the scruff of its' neck and kick it out of your life.
Guess what? you have every, EVERY, right to feel like a diva. You are your own god. The creator of your experience. You can't control other people directly and you can't take back anything you've experienced. You choose how you react to everything, though, and you can always change your mind. You have perfect control over yourself, no one else. Being a manipulative ******* won't make you happy for very long and it seems it's already weighing on your soul. That's okay, you've eternity after all. The world as it exists to you exists FOR you, so don't let your ego make it a personal hell when it will be a much better heaven. You did choose to come here, to be yourself which you do, oh so unapologetically, so figure out why.

Love and Light,
Diemyn