Why do I have this anger today

[hopsing94]

Man have I been in a bad mood since about 11:00 this morning. Maybe it because I didn't sleep last night. I don't know,maybe its just part of the process. Never been this long without except before i started using. Sorry if I seemed rude today. Hopefully I will sleep good tonight. I didn't take anything last night to help with sleeping and I can see I still need something. Gonna stop on my way home and get some melatonin. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully just a little better.

[hopsing94]

OMG I''M LMAO... you are a naughty one. still LMAO..

[NautyOne]

Thank God for Fladdict.  she turned me on to the melatonin...I didn't have high-hopes of it working, but I was willing to try anything at one point.  Can't belive it actually worked and worked well.  When I mixed it with Valerian it put me in such a knock-out dragged sleep I ended up pee'in the bed.....TMI I'm sure, but melatonin alone works great for me and thank god I don't have to smell the valerian anymore.  For a while I thought something crawled into my bedroom and died, before I figured out it was the Valerian, and better yet.......I no longer take soma for sleep, and that's a huge plus.

Nauty...............

[hopsing94]

God you are so right about the tired thing during the day and not being able to sleep at night. If I take something like ambien or xanax then i sleep and do pretty good the next day but I just want everything out so i can see whats really going on inside my body.
Well I am gonna try and catch celeb rehab in a few mins and go to bed. I will see you all tomorrow.
Oh by the way IBKleen said she was bringing the starbucks and kolaches tomorrow. ..... heh heh heh. Got ya back LOL

[Chi708]

There you goo that is positive thinking and thinking like that will take you far...

[hopsing94]

Thank you all so much,really. I think I was mad because i've started to realize that I really have to quit forever. When I first came here it was to get clean from hydrocodone to save my marriage. I guess I thought after a little while I would go back to using. Well now I realize I have to quit to save my marriage,my mind,my job and my life. It was a big slap in the face of reality. My mind is all over the place. I can't seem to shut it off sometimes. I know I have to do this. I cannot fail this time. You all are always there when I need a little help and I really appreciate it.
My little princess is beside me and she just started singing to me and it just put a big smile on my face. I will get through this and start enjoying everything i've been missing. Today was one of the tougher battles. One that I'm sure I will fight for awhile but triumph over so I can start living. Life is beautiful, through clear eyes. Thanks again.

[avisg]

I sooo recommend it ... I was having lots of problems sleeping .Within a week i was sleep threw the night .I take it every night now :)

[Chi708]

I am having the same problem with sleep i just posted a question about it. Another weird thing, i dont' know if you feel this way or not but i am not tired. I am wired... It is wierd. Good for work but not for home. When is it going to end,

[IBKleen]

Oh no, Hopsing mad and will not make me rice for dinner? LOL

You know I am playing with you. I am sorry you can't sleep. It is usually the last thing to return. I know that does not help. I have some good things about the melatonin, hopefully it will work for you tonight.

Also sending zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

[GoingToMakeIt]

Hopsing mad? Never. I would not have known. I hate bad days. I want to turn them in for a refund. Hopsing, every time you post, you try to have something positive to say. You my friend are a blessing that we all get to share in. Sleep well tonight.

[toxictome]

Your're right, it is part of the process, and part of tha tprocess, it PROGRESS not PERFECTION. We are nowtrying to live life on lifes terms..adnd life still happens, and we have to deal with it. I have found I'm ranging in emotion to crying, sobbng, laughing anger irritability, and once in a while I fell for just  a few moments a bit of serenity...and i'm looking forward to that day when I have way much more serenity than anger and irritability. It will come...be patient...we have messed w/ our minds for so long...they don't know whether they are coming or going.I remember when I first got sober(alcohol) I told my therapist I didnt' know why I was crying,mad or what ever it was I was feeling and she told me it didn't matter whether I knew why or not...she told me to just FEEL the feeling and that would help me get thru it. And it did work..you given me alot of support in the last 3 days(i just read for 2 days before i joined in) and I would hope we ar edoin gthe same for you. Let go and let God. I know some of these slogans are irritating, but they are so simple and right on the money! Sleep deep tonight....I'm already dreading that...but it will too pass!

[mshell62]

So sorry you are feeling this way.  This is crazy because I emailed another friend and told them the same thing!  I have been in a horrid mood all day.  The past few days.  Depressed, sad, mad.  Still shaking and it is day 12 for me.

I went to book store to find that book "End Your Addiction Now".  I couldnt find it but I think it is going to have some key info about us in it.

About the biochemical component of addiction.  

I will let you know, but maybe you already have this book?  

Hope you get through this.  I know you will.  You are very encouraging to me!

Michele

[enemy48]

You're not alone!  Know how crazy I am right now?  I'd like to find the architect that designed my big beautiful marble master bath b/c it sucks!  The tub's too big for the hot water tank and there's just a tiny heater up on the ceiling!  Hee Hee!

I hope you sleep well.  I gotta say, my sleeps been okay, but I awake from dreams that I would swear was not a dream!!!!!!!  They're not too bad of dreams, but scares the **** out of me before I realize it was a dream.  Weird.

Love your way Man!  ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

[msinsane]

i have been going through the no sleep thing to i am  on day 28 and still some nights i sleep others i dont some days i cry and some days i am angry somedays i laugh everything off i think our bodies are trying to find our way back to normal but who knows how long it will take and what normal is? lol you are very strong and you have encouraged alot of us dont let this bring you down hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and tonight you can get some rest....

[Junkie]

It's just the w/d man. It sucks. The moodiness and feeling like road kill is the worst.

When detoxing, I think the worst ailment is not being able to sleep. That is how I made it through times before....sleeping. But not without a pill of course.

I tried Melatonin and it didn't work. But, the next day I tried the Melatonin with Valerian Root and it worked nicely.

Hope you can get some rest.

Peace  : )