depression due to a sex

[zhandu]

i am a 18 years old boy. i have cool friends. we are really good friends. i feel depressed in simple thing. whenever i do some things, suppose think of  an exam, i really keep myself involved in thinking of small mistakes i did in my exams. But most of the time those mistakes are only thought by me but they really are not done by me in exams. i am a loner most of the time. i have no girlfriends. recently due to extreme desire of sex, i had sexual intercourse with a prostitute. i used condoms. I know i had a safe sex.  But a thing strike my mind every moment i stay alone. I am afraid of some dangerous diseases like hiv/aids . i keep on thinking that i used condom in useless manner without evacuating the air at the tip of the condom. but i know it didn't burst out. But i can't stay still. would u please please rescue me out from this hell full of depression.

[Captain_Rit]

you need counseling.     i can tell from the way your righting and the little glimpse of what you have said that there is something more to this.    you have anxiety issues and i wanna say bi-polar disorder but thats just a gut feeling.    you have rather severe impulses so i would say you need a good therapist to get really any help.      

but i highly highly highly doubt you got any stds and positive no hiv

[makyla]

I too don't believe that you have any stds. But if you are still worried you can go to the doctors and get tested.

I think you need to get out more. Go with your friends and have fun. let go for a while. I used to worry about the smallest things. To the point it would make me sick. But I realized... we live, we die. Why should I waste what life I have on the things that wont effect me when I die? There is something after dieing. Not sure what, I'll just see what it is when I get there.

When things get to hard for me I go outside, play with my animals, get on facebook and talk with my friends things like that. But I als o talk to my mom about everything.
Like... after I turned 16 I was raped. It was my first time. I felt it was my fault. I was curious so I did what he said. I told him I didn't want to go all the way. 1 I wasn't ready. 2 he had no protection. I thought I was going to get pregnant. But my friend told me it was my first so chances were lower (even though I could have gotten pregnant anytime after the "cherry popped") I could have worried over it. But that would have made things worse.
Like worring myself sick. the mind is a powerfull thing. the more I would have worried the Higher my risk at getting pregnant would have been. A month later... I got sick. So sick I couldn't walk for a week. My hands and feet burned and peeled, my tonge burt and had no taste buds. Ran a fever of 106.1. I had a blatter infection and who knows what else. My dad didn't do anything to help me. Even when I woke up in the middle of the night crying.
i told my mom. After telling her I felt soo much better! I can trust my mom (unlike my "dad") and that helps. She took me to the female doctors, got me my first chech-up (which is horrible!!!), put me on the pill, took care of me.

What I am saying is... try not to worry so much. It wont help. There are bigger fish to fry anyway. Take some time to have fun and enjoy life. Get a check up ASAP. You may feel better knowing for sure if you got anything. Try making new friends along with your old. Maybe ask a girl out. But don't rush into having sex!!! I know your a teen and it's a hormonal thing.
Do you and you parent(s) have a strong relationship?  Being able to be open and honest with them about ANYTHING really helps relieve stress.
Just find some one close to you that you can trust and talk with them. You can ask a counsler for help... but there is no garauntee there. If you need to talk me I will be here!

[StressedInsomniac]

It sounds like you regret your actions :S really do get yourself some help, oh and for your on peace of mind get the tests done :)