4hrs sleep in 5 days

[maybeidonotknow]

i have increasingly become aware of 'corruption' .i've made connections and predictions where events unfolding in the world support my unsettleing new perceptions.i cannot see the future.i think it is my research data that are the indicators to my 'intuition'.i'm losing friends because my reality no longer reflects theirs.it seems i am the only one who is aware and the rest of society seems to be in a trance.could it be that i am not well? could it be that i see things others do not or am i delusional? i  am losing sleep and becoming increasingly obsessed about current events and studying conspiracies.i am a different person now than i was three months ago.i cannot idenify with regular people anymore.i am in my head.what's wrong with me?

[fuzzy882]

DITO, as to what Hensley said.

[umya]

you dont sound delusional based on this post.  you do however, as you say have preoccupations or obsessions.  it is important to speak to a pschiatrist or better yet an analyst to help you understand the reasons why you have become obsessed recently.  that you mention an awareness "corruption"  is interesting.  often we project unconscious feelings or ideas about our selves or our current surroundings and situations out on to the world using broad metaphors.  are there people in your life you feel are "corrupt"?  do you feel corrupt?  are there chronic life circumstances you feel may fall into the category of "corrupt"?   have there been chronic situations from your past involving corrupt individuals who have hurt you?  hard to know for sure what's up based on a single post. but think of corrupt as a metaphor for things closer to home if you can.  all of this might sound a bit out there i know.  key though as above is to seek the help of a therapist and get feeling better soon.  best of luck to you.

[Tracie1001]

I have a similar issue but I don't see the world plotting.  I think the world is unaware of the effects of instant gratification and living selfishly.  It's irresponsible and can hurt ALL of us in the end.    Even the Roman empire fell and the Greek one too.  But I don't think about that so much. I think about how I can make life good for my family and others in my community.  

I am a huge history buff and the similarites are astounding.  Do some research.  Your not nuts, just obessed.  You can help.  You can change your fate.  You can't control the world.  But you can control yourself.

Hope I helped.

[maybeidonotknow]

thank you for your comments.i am seeking proffesional help.i would like to elaborate on 'corruption' for further feedback from those who are informed of such things.325ad constantine and the council of nicaea(where amalgamations of astrology.mythology and literal history was used to manipulate the bible to fulfill a political agenda)1540ad the creation of the jesuit order(the anti-reformation of the protestant movement and the extreme oath and induction)the influence of the warburgs(and rothchilds)to commision stalin,lenin and trosky to overthrow the czar of russia and to corrupt the russian orthodox church.1912ad the sinking of the titanic to rid the states of certain prominant families in order to establish the federal reserve act in1913.the 1933 market crash designed to create debt slaves out of america.the current housing crisis/market crash to be linked with the future introduction of the amero currency by2010.(north american union)the history of germany in the 30's seem to be repeating itself in america.(free speech 'zones',lists made by intelligence agencies which include political dissidents,free speech advocates,critics,scholars,etc.)the current spying on america,paramilitary forces,'internment' camps(constructed by haliburton subsidiary kbr)pariot act 1 +2....these are just a few of many things keeping me up.i am obssesing and perhaps mentally imbalanced,but for those of you who have done their homework.i need to hear from you...still sleepless,days later,i'm going to seek proffesional help.

[umya]

i understand the conspiracy theory stuff.  i get it.  i'm interested in that stuff myself.  however, the fact that you are sleepless as a result of this stuff suggests you are keeping yourself preoccupied or "obsessing".  obsessions, as awful as they are, are defensive in essence and keep us preoccupied so as to deflect our attention or awareness away from, get this, more painful emotional places.  obsessions can be very cunning and very noisy.  it is great that you are seeking help for this.  yes, the patriot act is likely a tool for creating a police state but dont let your obsessions create a similar police state in your head, a state that keeps you away from your true self and the possible emotional tangles therein.  best of luck to you.  feel better soon i hope!

[maybeidonotknow]

thank you.you make sense.since reading your comment i feel better.god bless

[lostsoul2]

A lot of people support some conspiracy theories.  Different people can see the same event unfold and have 2 completely different opinions.  I understand what you are saying.  You can get into the whole relationship between govnt. and the media and big business and the "man" and all that.  I have varied opinions about a lot of those scenarios and how they intertwine.  Do I believe everything I hear on TV or on the radio or read in a newspaper?  Hell no.  I am certain that there are filters for certain issues when it comes to public policy.  But I also don't believe that the whole of humanity is in a conspiracy against me personally, as my father certainly did.  It's worth thinking about and using your own judgements, but not to obsess over.  My father suffered severe paranoia, which led him to believe that every interaction he had with every person was in some way a conspiracy against him.  Yes, people lie at times.  Yes, the media at times doesn't cover issues or stories properly.  The government does withhold or provide false information to the public at times.  But don't let it destroy you.  If you can't stop the thoughts or control them at all, you may want to see a counselor and just get another opinion about what's going on.  Or at talk to a friend or coworker.  If you don't have anyone to confide thee things with, a counselor may be a start.  Good luck.

[maybeidonotknow]

thank you for taking time to comment.because of people like you i no longer feel entirely alone.i am going to pursue the greater good but not at the cost of my sanity.my therapist says i cannot positively influence change if i myself am not balanced.thank you again.god bless

[lostsoul2]

No, my friend, you certainly are not alone.  I am lucky enough to have a good friend wh I can talk to about all of this because he feels much the same way I do.  I have thought about all the things you have written about, from the Trilateral Commision, to the Council on Foreign Realtions, to the Freemasons, to the JFK conspiracy(if there was one or not, to dozens of other things.  If you really want to get it all pieced together interestingly, I recommend a book titled Rule By Secrecy by Jim Marrs.  It's very interesting.  Don't take it all as gospel, but it does bring up some interesting subjects.  It's a good read for these very same things yo are having trouble not thinking about.  So no, you are not alone.  Just realize it's not all against you.  You can't change anything about any of it, whether the conspiracies are true or not.  Just keep an open mind.  But if things are taking over your life and ruining relationships with othes or even yourself, just at least talk to somebody.  PM me if you want.  I'll respond.  Maybe not right away, but soon after.  

[maybeidonotknow]

thank you friend.i am aware of jim marrs and his writings.interestingly he does not address the vatican influence as it should be exposed.the cfr collusion in the presidential race is appaulling.un officials,rockefeller and the triateral commision should set an example for their own depopulation agenda  and eat their own chemtrails,ingest their own fluoride and aspartame,and vaccinate themselves with the mercury/formaldahyde/aluminum concoctions they are so willing to promote through their cfr controlled media tools.i love my fellow man.if you see that a piano is about to fall on the x your friend is standing on,wouln't it be common sense to tell them?i can see future generations saying 'didn't you see this coming?' and 'why didn't you do anything?'.i tell my friends about how rumsfeld is the major shareholder of gilead,the producers of tamiflu,and that they hold exclusive rights to this product in north america(the h5n1 bird flu vaccine) and how this weaponized virus is affecting the mid-east and the indo-china region.bush spent 162.5 million on vaccines in 2005.this set-up is not acknowledged until last week when a major newspaper (vancouver province) had a 4 page warning about avian flu pandemic.it seems people are less inclined to wake-up until it is almost too late.it will be a full out fascist despot gov't before people wil start asking 'what happened?' thank you for commenting.i am trying to be more balanced and getting more rest.my therapist says i can continue studying as long as i do not overdo it.it helps to talk.