i want an eating disorder

[IreneK1990]

I want to have an eating disorder, so much.Sometimes i have bulimic episodes(i eat too much without control or without being able to stop eating, without being hungry) but i never purge.Sometimes i starve myself, even though i know the dangers, i know the difficulties, i know that my life will be miserable and i still want an eating disorder.I don't know why i post this.Has anything like this happened to anyone??

[Babs145]

Let me get this straight..you WANT an eating disorder? Why!?! If you're over weight try dieting and exercising. Do you know the risks of eating disorders? Many times Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia Nervosa go hand in hand. Not only is it a sick way to live and a vicious cycle for the body, but also mentally. With this weight loss from not eating and then eating and purging comes many terrible things. You experience head aches, hair loss, hearts problems, and mood swings. THESE ARE JUST A FEW. Read up on them.

Also, I'd be very careful what you wish for. You should be thankful for good health and PRAY TO GOD for the people that have eating disorders. They're frightening and effect  everyone in your life.

Consider seeing a doctor about your eating habits, go to the gym, and see a nutritionist. I also think you'd benefit from seeing a psychiatrist since you're having suicidal thoughts. Starving yourself is like slowly killing yourself. Same thing with binging and purging.

Good luck!

Babs

[leanie]

Don't take this the wrong way, but do you want an eating disorder not because of the weight you think you would drop or because of the attention that you think you would get? Many people thrive for people to be concerned for them and worry. It could be a cry for love and attention. Are you trying to be accepted by anyone?
Eating disorders are terrible!! It is a constant fight everyday mentally.
I would consider talking to a doctor or a theropist before you take this any further.

Good Luck!

Leanie

[ParamedFlorena]

Hi again IreneK,

I left a reply in your other post too, earlier today. Maybe my first reply was a little on the "easily misunderstood side".
Look around a little at the related tags here too. There is a reason for every eating disorder - and I really feel sorry for you for going through the pondering of changing your eating habits so drastically.

Do consider a healthy eating habit with varied foods and vegetables and keep yourself to it. Ask anyone to help you with what would be "normal" servings and get support from people close to you. We all started with wondering about getting eating disorders. We did all do the choice you're about to do.

Do PM me and we could look into healthy diets together. With a chocolate bar of calories each day, of course we need to get the hunger stilled with other sorts of foods and when it first starts on the bingeing, few things stops it.
If you eat regular servings 4 times a day, you won't get that craving for more food as strong as when you restrict yourself. You can get control! I definitely trust you on that - but look for the right kind of control and not a control you know you can punish yourself for breaking.

Florena (again)

[IreneK1990]

i have a nutritionist since last january.and a therapist and a psychiatrist(i have only seen him once)i know all the dangers, but i still want it, not because i want attention.i don't like attention.i don't like people pity me.this is more psychological.i don't know.maybe because i want to die so much.

[ParamedFlorena]

Irene?

I won't pretend that I understand, but I really am trying. Do try to get in touch with your therapist and your psychiatrist more often. Depression starts with chemistry in our heads, and sometimes it is better with medication for it instead of beating it in other ways.
I can really not imagine how you feel in this - it sounds like a tumble around. Would eating disorders kill you? It is many risks.

Food is an obsession. That is where eating disorders start. At least for some. What the other reasons are, I don't know.

I really don't want to show you to another place now when you have opened up - and I don't know if you appreciate my replies so follow the link below, maybe that can give you answers too?

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/show/57


I think you're brave!

Florena

[IreneK1990]

I count calories and i don't want to gain weight.i believe im fat, even though other people think im not.I don't think im brave!Why do you think i am??

The psychiatrist hasn't diagnosed me with depression yet as i have seen him once.But even if he does, i don't think he will give me meds because they don't give to teens.

[ParamedFlorena]

Why I think you're brave.... Because you admit to yourself that you do need help. Us women will always have a little bit of a wondering eye on ourselves too about what others think about us.

I really do wish you good luck and hope that you will get the help that you need - they do often give antidepressants to teens, but I don't know how it works over the borders there. You'd be followed up close - and please don't loose hope on life! Believe in it once becoming better. It IS possible.

Florena

[IreneK1990]

i don't think there is hope.you know what?? I have decided that i won't get an eating disorder, because i think about all the people that they have an ED.I mean, people with ED say that they wish they had never started, they had never skipped meals right??Its somehow like cutting.I wish i had never started, because now i can't stop, not that i regret starting, but i wish i hadn't.you know what i mean??so is with ED i believe.i will wish later i had never started right??thats the only reason i don't want.

[ParamedFlorena]

The traps of our minds can really be a few. PM waiting for you :-)

[julianne07]

Not only will you be thin, but you will get to experience,gastrointestinal problems, decaying teeth and heart problems with your eating