Gip

[memily79]

you know from the very beginning, i felt like we've had about the same thing going on.  i'm sorry about the benzos for you, though.  i wish i would've seen what you were trying to do.  the mantra is withdrawal CAN'T KILL YOU...except benzos and alcohol.
why DID i start this ridiculous cycle?  i knew it would happen, i saw it coming.  i had many chances to quit before i got to the level i got to.
such is life...
anyway, yesterday for the first time, i didn't have any stomach pain.  still a little runs, but that freaking contraction-like cramping is gone.  i'm feeling well.  today is day 17- whoo-hoo!
and b/c my husband still goes to the clinic, we have methadone in the house constantly.  i had one night where the thought of it kept me from sleeping, but other than that i just feel so sorry for him.  i'm literally scared for him.  he's on a much higher dose than i was and has heart-problems to boot.  so, yeah, why did we do this to ourselves?  it would've been a lot easier (and cheaper) to run to mexico and mainline sewer water for a month =)

[memily79]

here's what i always thought about benzos, having been prescribed them before and during my opiate foray.  "they don't feel as good, and they don't hurt as bad."  so, that way i justified using them even at times when i was supposed to be "clean".  i've never actually felt the w/d from them, but as i said i didn't really "enjoy" them enough to take, take, take them.
please let me know how it goes.  i have a girlfriend who pops them mercilessly.  she aslo says she never has w/d, but i don't see hownot.  the opiates sure had her in a vise.

[TB1964]

Congrats on your withdrawl!   Everyone has their own personal demons when it comes to withdraw symptoms.  Mine has always been mental, the constant thought of taking more pills keeps me awake at times.  

Those pills are very evil - hopefully, with my pill shaving routine, I'll be off those white devils soon.  

Good luck to everybody!

[gipsee]

Wow...you go girl....

People here talk about metadone from W/D for Vics.. and I'm saying to myself... gawd... I hope I don't have to go that far.

Well..w/d didn't kill me from the vics.. it surely was not pleasant... all of a sudden I'm having bouts of clarity, and wow.. feelings.. this ain't so bad.   However, intermitted...they are coming through.

The benzo ordeal is my fault... I thought I got through the Vics I could do it with the Benzos...I was only taking 2.5 - 3 mgs a day.. what the hey....Wed I actually do not know how I made it through that day, the level of anxiety was so overwhelming at times I could not breathe.   Thankfully I did some reading and just got a few to hold me over 'til I got to the Docs today.   I'm fine..but memories of Wed will dance with elephant feet in my head for a very long time.

Funny part is... I didn't flush the Vics I have down the toilet...but I did flush the benzos ... go figure.

LOL... what an Anal orifice I am.

Thanks for being here for us... you have been an inspiration... TRULY

Gip