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[kenneltech]

I am so sick and tired of psychiatrists and doctors.  Psychiatry is still in the infant stage and certainly not an exact science.  I have had depression and PTSD since I was very young and have been in and out of hospitals, doctors offices, etc for a long time.  So far, I have been diagnosed with about everything in any medical book you pick up!!!!  I also have been on just about every drug there is, and I still haven't gotten the help I need because I still am depressed and anxious.  Fact is, I quit going to a psychiatrist because I am truly "talked out" and have gotten nowhere, and it's not from lack of trying.  I have also had 3 series of 6 ECT treatments, and all I got was a headache.  Anybody else out there  with the same problem?

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[Hensley258]

I think a lot of us share your story. I have also been fighting this beast for half my life and I am still no closer to finding a solution or answer.

I also agree with you that Psychiatry and the mental health sciences are only in their infancy stage. Unfortunatly the human brain is just about as much of a mystery as the entire Universe is.

I think the result of this problem is two fold. First the brain is so complex that I wonder if it's secrets will ever be unlocked. Second, The study of the Brain and how it relates to Mental Health is horribly under funded. This lack of funding for research is one reason why very few advances have been made in this area.

The fact is that it will be long after our time before a cure is found for this disease.
All we have are treatments, most of which are fuzzy and unreliable at best.

[shel62]

well said.....have any of you ever tried to get off the drugs all together?

[Hensley258]

I have a couple times. It was pretty much like taking a long trip to the depths of Hell.

I finnaly wised up and realized just how much my meds really do for me.
These meds can fool you. They often eliminate the symptoms of Depression and Anxiety so well that they make you think the condition is all gone. Then you try to discontinue usage and you slowly fall back to a dark well.

I have heard some stories about people with Severe Depression and Anxiety dissorder being able to stop all meds for life, but I find myself questioning if they really needed them in the first place.

I just can't see how it's possible to do if your condition is really bad.

[xanweaner]

WOW - that's positive to hear about people with severe depression and anxiety being able to stop meds for life....

[kenneltech]

Trust me, it's hard.  Sometimes, my heart pounds so bad and I get really rapid heartbeats.  Or I am really, really jumpy.

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[kenneltech]

My depression, severe PTSD, bi-polar disorder is so bad that at one point I went to Yale New Haven hospital and they taped me to use as a study tape for their classes.  I also, at that time, had severe dissociative disorder.   Trust me, this isn't easy, but at least I don't get all the side effects AND be miserable at the same time.  I'll take one or the other, and I chose which one.

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[mrmoose]

I too have Severe Depression and PTSD and many other things they can make up a code for.  What I don't have is someone who cares, can share a hug, can meet to talk or just to listen, or anyone that I can call when I find myself crying, and shaking while I huddle in the corner.  Docs and therapists only talk or listen until their hour is up and thats their job.  We pay them to care for an hour a week or whatever.  They can't give you a hug, sit next to you or actually meet outside of the office even in the slight chance they wanted to due to ethics and losing their job.  I am a nurse, a mom, a wife, a caregiver, a neighbor, a customer.  I have low self esteem, hate what happened to me, nonsocial outside of work, afraid of myself my feelings and what I might do to myself out of despair and someone that had the ability to love and be loved.  I know the rules, the expectations, the results, etc of the mental health system.  There are only drugs that can keep me able to function and work so I can pay the people who give me the drugs.  They don't care.  We are all just a paychech to them.. There is more help for the person that has diabetes or another physical disease that can be diagnosed with fancy labs and tests.  Those with mental illness or injury don't count.  I would have rather lost a part of my body or gotten a disease than to have depression or PTSD. My attackers have free healthcare.  I wish my attackers would have killed me because even if I'd gone to hell it would be better than living like this in torment every hour of every day.  Yah, I DO UNDERSTAND!!!

[kenneltech]

You can e-mail me, I will always listen.  I don't know how to do a private "blog" page, but you can have my e-mail address.  I care

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