Need help with pain

[AnnaE]

I lost most of the vision in my right eye during the last year.I also had a very hurtful relationship with my eye doctor. I think that he is sick. Ifeel that my therapist does not believe me, even though I told her about it all along. She called him a "nice guy" for a long time.

My psychiatrist does not know much, because I have not told her much about him, but she says that I am having flashbacks about the medical tratments. He did everything from tickling me with a pin the third time I saw him, to saying with a smile, and in a gleeful voice, that he would be happy to take my eye out.He knows that I wnat to save my eye above everything. Yet I was very attached to him because I feared bl;indness so much. It is crazy. I have feelings, nightmares about him all the time.

My therapist has been with me for 20 years. She is a specialist in abuse. I was abused as a child by my own family.
I see the psychiatrist for medication,

[RockRose]

"Bad Childhood,  Good Life" by Dr. Laura Schlessinger.  Twenty years of therapy is enough - it's time to begin living.

[AnnaE]

Therapy does not interfere with life. You need therapy when you cannot live your lifewithout a lot of pain.

The sujsect here is not therapy, it is the pain that needs to be resolved.

[KAYOS]

I am not sure what pain you refer to. Physical or mental ? The books mentioned above are worth a look, as you will find 4 out of 5 people have suffered at the hands of a loved one. 20 yrs. is a long time ,Are you sure your doctors are serving your best interests. It is a question worth pondering. It might be time to seek help elsewhere if you are still feeling the same. Best of luck to you.

[RockRose]

nancygrace what you feed grows.  Twenty years is a LOT of feeding the part of you that was injured by your family!  You owe it to yourself to not give them much more time.

Really,  get the book.  And read the whole thing,  even past the chapter that makes you break down and cry.  Keep reading.

[AnnaE]

Your comments are not helpful. Please do not tell anyone else this--I mean, another survivor of abuse. Talk to a therapist/specialist in abuse about chronic anxiety/depression, and the possible effects of being abused by onr's family of six, into adulthood. Later, the same person LOST SIGHT from a HEREDITARY disorder., and was also ABUSED by her eye doctor for eight months. Abuse victims are frequently re-victimized.

BTW, your comments are also called blaming the victim.
Read some research on childhood abuse. The book you mention is a pop culture book. It is not serious research.

[AnnaE]

Is there a psychologist who monitors this forum? Seems like it needs some professional direction and feedback.

Members should not gang up on other members, as has happened here,

[RockRose]

nancygrace,  I'm not at all blaming the victim.

You only go around once in life,  this is it.  There are no do-overs.

There ARE ways to ease the pain of childhood abuse,  and empower yourself to recover and live a fuller life.  Twenty years of therapy isn't it.  

This pain will be with you forever,  but it doesn't have to be as intense as it is with you - it can be eased.  There are people who have been through difficult times who really don't want to give that up - because the alternative is too scary.  

I know what I'm talking about,  and I don't need a therapist to enlighten me.  I understand surviving trauma and having to get past it as best I can.

What would you be giving up by getting this book?  It's in paperback.  Get it.  Really.

[AnnaE]

I don't even see my therapist in person> I sometimes talk to her on the phone. I have not seen her in years. My post is about lost VISION.

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I am looking for support--not suppostions about my therapy. I told you I only talk to my therapist when there is a crisis. I am in a crisis.I am looking for support--not suppostions about my therapy. I told you I only talk to my therapist when there is a crisis. I am in a crisis.I am looking for support--not suppostions about my therapy. I told you I only talk to my therapist when there is a crisis. I am in a crisis.I am looking for support--not suppostions about my therapy. I told you I only talk to my therapist when there is a crisis. I am in a crisis.I am looking for support--not suppostions about my therapy. I told you I only talk to my therapist when there is a crisis. I am in a crisis.

I reported you comments as abuse of the form and my post. You act like you read nothing I said.
I reported you comments as abuse of the form and my post. You act like you read nothing I said.I reported you comments as abuse of the form and my post. You act like you read nothing I said.


IF YOU CANNOT BE SUPPORTIVE, DO NOT ANSWER POSTS iF YOU SAY STUFF LIKE YOU HAVE SAID AGAIN, IWILL NOT ANSWER YOU; i WILL REPORT THE COMMENTS. HOWEVER.