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You were doing enough toot to be getting nose bleeds, so I'm guessing that when you hit the stem it wasn't for just a puff now and then. That life style, actually more than the drug itself, take a huge toll - you can recover from it, but you need the sleep, food and water that you've been depriving yourself of for these past 2 or 3 months.
I jumped on to my first crack run at the very bottom of a 5+ year addiction to hydrocodone. My brain was hard-wired for addiction by that time and when I introduced crack I took off like a bat out of hell. I lasted about 8 weeks and was shipped of to a 28 day rehab.
I was like a new man when I got home, but I thought (KNEW) that I "needed it just one more time" and relapsed w/i 36 hours. Within 3 days I was using daily again. I assume you know how it goes from there . . . wasn't too long before I gave up the pretense of being clean and just went at it most of the day every day. The last 2 weeks were basically 24-7 - I remember that one day I honestly felt like I was ahead of the game and doing well because I actually slept for 20 minutes in a chair.
My 2nd rehab started 4.5 months after my 2nd run started and that rehab lasted exactly 4 months. For the 1st week I was an absolute zombie and I was still testing positive for cocaine after 9 days.
Besides sleep, food and water, the next most important thing for getting clean was addressing my brain chemistry. That was done through fairly intensive amino acid and conventional vitamin supps. I highly recommend the book "End Your Addiction Now," by Charles Gant. Starting in Chapter 4 or 5, it qives you a few short (15 question) tests that will tell you exactly what amio acids you need to get the neurotransmitters straightned out in you brain - coke (especially crack) really does a number on them.
As important as all the other stuff that rehab did was the simple fact that it provided me with a safe place, where I could slowly get better while I was virtually unable to function. There were so many days when I was trying to quit on my own when I "just needed a blast to get me going," which just started the whole ride all over again.
If you haven't tried NA or AA, try that too. I actually go to 5 or 6 AA meetings a week. It really helps if you can just surrender to it and not focus on how other people are different or how you don't fit in, etc. There's a standard that says you should hit "90 meeting in 90 days" - if you can do that (whether you like it or not and whether it seems to be helping or not) you'll be well on your way.
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(guess I better watch myself in 6 days!)