Does it really get better?

[lucylou35]

Hi Everyone, I really dont know where to start here, but Im looking for help and lots of it. Im looking to find a positive side to all this! Im 35 yr old female and been working in a factory for about 15 years. My job is really hard, its hard on the body and the back and so on... Well I got introduced to these wonderful loratabs about 2 years ago, and guess what I found out there totally not so wonderful. It got to where in the last 6 months or so of course Im taking like 10 loratab 10's a day, throw in a few percocets and an occasional oxy cotton 40! I never thought I would let myself get to this point! I have no kids but a wonderful man in my life that is drug free, and if he knew I was taking all this pain medication he would totally flip! Ive got to where I cant pay my bills, and so on, just like every other drug usuer. I come from a wonderful family and have some wonderful friends, but I cant seem to kick this habit and God knows I have to! I hate being so dependant and trying to find these pills everyday. I have no prescription so I buy them off friends and it has totally broke me. I dont want to loose my man or my family so I have come to a point where I absolutly have to stop! I want my life back, I want my money back I want to wake up of a morning and feel good and not have to worry about where Im going to find my next pill. How in this world do I start? So far I have been totally clean for 3 days and I know thats nothing, but I mean you should have seen all the pills I was putting into my system so thats a huge step for me! But God I feel so bad, I mean I cant hardly stand it! I have to be strong and act like theres nothing wrong at work and at home because nobody really knows but the dealers that Ive even hooked! This is terrible, Its all I think about, my back and my whold body aches like a sore tooth! Im freezing I dont want to be around anyone. I just really hurt bad all over!!! I havent slept I havent ate Im a real *****!!!Can someone please tell me around when I will start to feel better? Will I ever not ache anymore like this? Will I be able to be my happy self again? How long do you go threw such painful withdrawals? I have to do this on my own, I cant get methadone or anything like that because Im afraid I will get addicted to it. I just need some answers and I would really appreciate anyone that would take the time to explain some of this to me.. Thanks so much!

[cathy5841]

well, the good news is it does end.  time tables are different for everyone.  for me days 6 was a turning point.  i was not over it by any means but i didnt pray to die anymore.  could you matbe say you have the flu and get a few days off work?  have you looked up the thomas recipe?  it is in the health pages of the this forum.  it has great vitamins and aminos to help with w/ds.  if you need any help please let me know
cathy

[done4good]

Lucy,
I'm in the same place, maybe not with as many drugs per day but I know how you feel.
It's horrible. Thank you for reminding me not to look further than my docs for the drugs...that was my next step and I quit w/my last pill on sunday am for that reason.
I'm here, with you...and I understand. I have the chills too and feel totally sick.
d

[flmagi]

Welcome to the forum. Your on day 3 cold turkey,correct?  Day 5 you should start to feel better. I can't beleive you're working during withdrawels, you must be stronger than you think.  After day 5 things will get better pretty quick except for cravings, maybe some sleepless nights and lack of energy, but that all gets better with time.
You need to do some serious planning of how to handle cravings, cause you don't want to fall back. Concider going to some N/A meetings.
Hang in there and stay strong. Keep posting, especially when you get cravings.
Magi

[road2recovery]

Wow---Day 3 and you are working, u are alot stronger then u think u are....Everyone has given u great advice...I went c/t from 15 10mg lortabs a day....I am over 7 months clean, wish i would of kept a journal but i didn't.., day 5 was so much better...RLS, and sleep were the worst for me...Energy too, but that just takes time..
It is all worth it, i promise...I know that doesn't make it go away now, but please know that it will get better...I was spending so much money on pills that if i continued, i would of been in big trouble, and may have lost my husband and family...
I am praying that it gets better fast!!1
stay strong
r2r

[lucylou35]

Thanks for the comments I have received from all of you so far. Yes  flmagi Im working threw all this. I have no days that I can miss during work. I would give anything to just stay home in bed for about a week. It does give me relief to know that in 2 more days I will mabe start feeling better. I sure do know it is ROUGH! Im going to look up the thomas recipe that cathy was talking about and get started on it right away. This is really so helpful to know that Im not the only one out there going threw this crazy stuff. How do we let ourselves get to this point!  Thank you so much and I will be here everyday to get some well needed support!!! And hopefully I can help someone out there get threw the same thing Im going threw!