What can I do?

[Franklin414]

I am a senior in highschool who is well-educated and preparing to go off to college, but i have had my life put through a tornado.  I began partying weekly about eight months ago, drinking twice a weekend and smoking pot on and off.  I was able to quit pot whenever i felt it was changing me, and maintained a near 4.0 in school during first semester.  Since then, however, I have recently had a series of bad relationship and drug experiences, tracing back to a party i held at my house.  At this party, i had my normal group of friends, some of the best ones you could ask for, over for a night of beer pong and sociallizing.  A girl that i had grown very close with over six months and had been hooking up with almost weekly was over, and got drunk, ending up with her shirt off on my couch with my best friends **** in her hands.  This girl and I were practically dating at the time, but had just come off a minor fight.  This was clearly not a good sight for someone who had as much to drink as i did, and sent me into a bit of a panic.  My other friends began fighting that night with each other as well, but luckily a few helped me (and everyother drama filled person) calm down.  
      The problem continued the next day, as i was frustrated with the girl who i had helped out through so many of her situations, began acting like a true friend never would.  I stopped talking to her that day out of frustration, and she began talking to my best friend, the one she had met the night before and hooked up with.  The two of them have apparently clicked, and i havent been able to bring myself to talk to either one of them since, which is over two weeks now.  I have lost the two people that meant the most to me, and I dont know what I'd ever say to them.  So now my ddrinking problem has increased and gotten out of control.  The urge for weed is also present, something i have never experienced before.  In order to put up with the pressure's of school and having to see this girl in three of my classes, i have turned to adderall, which i am not prescribed for.  Adderall allows me to concentrate on school and relieves my tension that i otherwise would feel towards my two (ex) best friends.  The problem is that i have become ddependent on it.  I used to take it for finals and tests like the ACT, but that was it.  Now i reach for adderall whenever i become anxious or a problem arrives.  I have lost all self-confidence, and I am experiencing symptoms of depression, ones which differ depending on whether or not im on adderall.  
I need to stop this because i know its not like me, but I cant figure out how.  I dont know if its possible to fix my friednships, and the draw to adderall, alcohol, and pot become stronger each day.  My two ex-friends are now going to prom, and i am losing other friends who are fighting with eachother and also because i am withdrawn when on adderall. Any suggestions on my friendships or on my new drugged out lifestyle would be GREATLY appreciated, becuase i cant seem to figure this out by myself.  

[GoingToMakeIt]

If you can confide in a counselor. I would highly recommend it. The use of drugs or alcohol to not face things is common but it is hard to overcome by yourself.

[Flutterby111]

Gosh, I was young once to, and into drugs...I'd hate to see you throw away your future over frustrations with peers and addictions to adderall.  I don't think there's an age requirement to Narcotics Anonymous...maybe you should consider going there to a meeting just to see what # 1 what can happen to you if you continue down that road.  #2 get some face to face advice from people.  I also liked GTMI's advice on the counselor idea.  Or are there any support groups for teens in the community?  Good luck honey.

P.S. DOn't let those two see you crumble over them...rise above them...okay?

[worried878]

You need to work on your own demons..perhaps the group of friends u have are not conducive to getting urself straightened out...the friends who are really ur friends will be there for u when u need them

[ladyboop]

You are in a bad spot.. and we are all here to help you..
When my son was in high school he was messing with all those drugs and more.. I was so scared for him. As a mom I tried everything I could to help him. Nothing worked.. all the talks.. We were and are very close.. Then one day he came home,(this was after high school was done) and told me he was going in the navy.. To get away from all the drugs. He told me that nothing I said to him helped him stop the drugs. It was watching his friends one by one go to jail....
My point to all this honey, is you have to really want it bad enough and you can do this...
I wish you all the best.. Talk to someone and fix the friendships or at least let them know how you feel and move on with your life... You are to young to let others pull you down...

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Franklin,
As the mom of a 17 year old honor student that has done many of the things you are doing... I know what you are going through and how much you have to lose. You are a smart young man with your whole life ahead of you. You are going to make new friends and meet tons of girls in college. DO NOT throw all that you have worked for away because of high school drama and mostly because of drugs. If you can't talk to your parents then talk to someone. A family friend, a school counselor a church counselor, someone!!!
If you need to seperate yourself from these friends then do it. I promise you in a few months when you are away at college having a blast these friends will not matter as much. My son is going to prom next weekend and I know it's important to you right now but who cares. You are smarter than this do not throw your life away to drugs. If you get caught with pot or drinking (the adderall is prescribed to you) where are you going to end up? It won't look good on your college applications...You are a smart young adult and this is up to you. Make the right decisions and clean yourself up sweetie...
Hugs,
Chi Chi