New member Hoping to make it

[soonerguy]

Hello everyone.  My name is Will and I am addicted to prescription drugs.  My drug of choice is either hydro or oxycodone.  I have been taking them on and off for 10 years, but it has been the last 4 years that it has become an addiction that I can't manage any more.  I have had several surgeries in the last few years and have other medical conditions that have made it easy to get the pills from doctors.  But I have been doctor shopping and they have found out so my supply is gone.  And to tell you the truth I am thankful.  I am so tired of living my life where all I think about is where I am going to get the pills.  I want to be normal again and not be addicted to anything.  I have been lurking on the board for about a month and you have given me support without even knowing it when I read you posts to other people.  I hope you will help me though as well.  Tomorrow will be day 1 for me cold turkey.  I hope the withdrawals aren't too bad.  I have withdrawn in the past and made it through so I hope I can do it this time too.  I am mainly worried about the mental withdrawal; the cravings.  I need help getting through those.  Well, thank you for this board and for all your comments.  I plan on spending a lot of time on this board for support.  

[joann1975]

welcome to the forum. best of luck you are at a great place. look at the health pages to the right of the screen and you will find an amino acids protocol and thomas recipe to help you detox.

[bobby139]

First off,..Welcome to our family. Your story sounds just like mine and I have been clean from the oxy's now for 5 weeks and darv. for 1 week..You have come to the right place for sure.. The ppl here are great! They will get you thru it..Its not going to be easy but you sound like you are ready for this. Make sure to check out the health pages for Vit. ect... and most important post as much as u want that really get's you thru some hard times. and feel free to pm me or anyone for questions or just to talk, whatever you need at the time. Keep your chin up and we are here for you.
hugs bobby

[ILoveLukey]

I don't know how you found this site but I am glad you did. You will receive soooo much support on here.  So many people here with so much experience and hearts of gold that will go out of their way to help you.  It is wonderful that you are finally seeking help. That means that you want to get better and are on your way.  Stay tuned.......keep posting......

[Calzy]

Hey Will, i know how you are feeling right now, i did the same drugs as you for 13 years and ended with my doctor's cutting me off for shopping.The last thing i wanted to do was stick my head in a pharmacy after i got caught and you may feel the same so that's a good thing. I was at the end of my rope anyway and as you said i was thankful it happened. Let this be your bottom you hit to be done using any more. No matter what drugs we are addicted to we have the same things in common. The drugs become our main focus. They interfere with our health, relationships, our time, dwindle  or deplete our resources and rob our quailty of life.  We are always looking for more or want a larger dose, not to treat our pain or get pleasure from it any more but to treat the pain of withdrawal. Most ppl can get thru the physical part of w/d's, it's the psychological aspect that bites ppl in the butt.
Good luck with your recovery and give it 110%
Calzy

[paul300]

i hear ya on the mental w/d's. sort of a long, thinner version of the heavy phy w/d's (over time.) i'm changing many habits and its helping already. i've stopped alcohol until much later as it triggers the urges big-time for me.

ditto on the help and spiritual support on this forum. you're already on the right track. all the best.
david

[grievingwidow]

Dear Will, first let say how very sorry I am that you are having to go through this.  You sound very brave and determined though, and I have high hopes for you.  I have been addicted for going on 20 years now and since my husband's death five years ago this week, I have had even less willpower than usual.  It has been years since I felt any kind of euphoria, I just need them now to feel "normal" (if I remember what that even is anymore).  But, good luck Will, let this forum help you through the days ahead, there are some great people here.  I know some people have had good luck following the Thomas Recipe for withdrawal symptoms, but for me, nothing has really ever helped, you just have to hang on and pray.

Love, Cindy

[goldenarm]

If you have been taking them that long,going cold turkey seems impossible,,i would try the sub program for a 60 day taper,,

[lifesaride]

good luck my friend, be strong. your gonna realize very soon how weak the pills have made you, your gonna have to reach way down to be strong, and the forum support helps too. but remember its ultimately YOU doing this. always here. Teddy

[Greatgreebo]

Welcome and Congrats on getting your life back!!! Please do NOT go the suboxone route as suggested by goldenarm above. Don't substitute one physical dependency for another-hydro and oxycodone are completely kickable via CT.
You will feel crappy (as you know) but you can definately go cold turkey and be none the worse for wear at the end (as you also know). Start forcing yourself to eat healthy to get some nutrients into yourself.
I was on hefty doses of hydro (taking up to 30 10/325 mg pills at a time) for a long time and finally went CT. It was definately the best decision I have made in a long time. It's late right now, but keep posting and you will get tons of support. The forum regulars are wonderful. Lots of positive people here who have all been in your shoes. I know when I was in WD's it gave me some relief to chat with people who could honestly say 'been there, done that'......lots of their little tips actually made the WD's much less icky.
Go into my profile and into my journal. Read the entries named PAWS part 1, 2, 3.
You may already know about the mental aspect of WD's, but read it anyway.
You can do this. Stay positive, think of how GREAT your life will be when you don't have to: count the pills, take the pills, hide the pills, find the pills......
Oh, that existence sucks!!! We both know that. I am glad your doctors caught on-and it sound like you are also. You can do this!!!
Keep posting.
Try to get lots of exercise. It really does help with the wigglies. And please stay positive. Don't worry about tomorrow or the next day---just deal with right now while you are in WD's. Once you're clean and WD free-then you can tackle everything else.

I'm so proud of you!!!!
Greatgreebo

[Rose703]

Welcome to the forum!! I'm sorry for the reason you're here, but to me this forum has been a true life saver. Your determination sounds good, but I completely understand where you're coming from about the mental status. What I found that helped me was staying here even after the physical stuff was over and continually posting. There's also AA/NA and you should get involved in one of them for aftercare.
I'm a little over 30 days clean from Oxy's and Perc's and for me the mental part is the only thing that worries me now. I've educated myself though especially on the PAWS (which you can find on the lower right hand side of this page) You should really read up on it as it sneaks up on you!!
As the next days pass continue to post and let us help you!! Congradulations on day 1 and I hope to hear from you today!!

[ladyboop]

Welcome,
     You will find all kinds of support and help.. you will make friends who know your story well... You can do this... Thank the information that has arealy been givin to you, use it, post offen, and before you know it, it will be over.. The mental part will take longer than a few days. But as long as you get some aftercare, N.A, or something, You will make it... Try and be good to your self while you are going through this.....

Best of luck....

LadyBoop

[Mikeinthesouth]

All the support in the world here bro. You can do this. Hang on and take miknute by minute if you must. I did and do!!!!

[worried878]

Good for u and glad u have posted..lots of support here...really wanting it is so important to success...it is such a hassle keeping up with how many pills i had..so glad to be pill free..keep posting

[rue10]

Hi Sooner,  I'm new also.  I'm in my 4th day without a perc. CT.  It's been difficult and today I still feel shakey and irritable but I'm making it.  I understand what you mean about the living you life around where the next pills will come from.  I've spent 100s of $ to supplement the time inbetween my rxs.  It's a terrible vicious cycle.  I wish you the absolute best in your challenge.  The people here have helped me a great deal.

Greebo:  I will take the advice and read your journals.  Thanks so much for offering them.  I know after the w/ds it is my mind that will cause me the most danger of swallowing yet another pill.

[Beargizmo]

Best of luck to you Soonerguy, and welcome..as others have said, it's not going to be easy but we're here for you...have you read about clonidine on the board here?  It helped
many of us to get over the first few days by easing and practically eliminating the withdrawal symptoms..you will need a prescription as it is a blood pressure med.


Best of luck..stay with us.

Jim