I"m getting bummed out

[bioclock1]

I've been holding onto this hope that i'm one of those pregnant women who knows shes pregnant and then stupid HPT's just won't cooperate! So, now that I think I would be almost at 7 weeks, my hope that i'm preggo and it's just not showing up is beginning to dwindle down. i purchased 40 of the internet test strips and all have been blank (negative) and i just looked at pictures of what positives should look like and all these pics were posted of women 10 dpo or 15 dpo and they were getting 2nd red lines on the test strips. So now, i can't hold onto the hope that the strips are just cheap and/or my levels just aren't registering.
Now i'm sadly realizing that perhaps all my preggo signs have just been a fluke, a cyst or something to taunt me. I'm so bummed out and my Dh is out of town right now so I'm all by myself and frustrated w/this!!! I want a baby!!!

any words would be comforting. thanks girls.

[martikadragoon]

I'm sorry your bummed.. You just wait, I'm sure SOMETHING will happen soon.

Have you gone to your OBGYN to see if you have a cyst? or if there's actually a sac in there?

[bioclock1]

martika-
thanks...no, i haven't gone to doc yet. I'm uninsured so i was just waiting to either get a bfp or my Af..if i have a cyst i want to see if it'll go away on its own b4 i spend money having it looked at. I know thats not very proactive but....financially those are my options right now.

[Linzola1]

I am so sorry, but like martikadragoon said your something will happen. I will keep you in my prayers and if you need to talk dont hesisatate to PM me. I know it sucks when your husband isnt around when you are going through something. My hubby works 16 hour days so hes not around alot so I rely on the ladies here for support. I am here for you.

[bioclock1]

awww..thank you! that's really sweet and i appreciate the support you and a few other women on this forum provide! It really helps.
I just want someone to walk in and say "are you crazy??? THat 2nd line is RIGHT THERE!!"

butt....i don't see anything. :(

[martikadragoon]

do you have children? you can apply for medicaid or medical. Did you get your saliva test results back yet?

You can also get a pregnancy blood test at the local planned parenthood. Just explain how late you are and that your urine tests are negative, but your body feels pregnant.

Maybe that'll get them to do a blood test or at least a U/S! (a U/S should be expensive.. but you know doctors)

[Linzola1]

hey can you post a pic? Maybe there si one you never know?

[bioclock1]

no children...i have out of state insurance from the state i'm from and they don't cover out of state procedures. I haven't switched it b/c of preexisting conditions (hypothyroidism, anxiety/depression, etc) and we'll be moving back to our home state soon.

No results back on my saliva test and its pissing me off! I am really anxious to know what's up so i can fix whatever is wrong.

I didn't know you could get a blood test!!  awesome..i thought they just did hpts!! thanks a lot for that info!! i'm going tomorrrow!!!

[bioclock1]

my Dh is on a business trip and has the camera. I took a few w/my phone but I don't know how to get it online....

[Linzola1]

oh okay well if you need anything please PM me

[bioclock1]

thanks again..
if i can figure out how to get camera pics on the computer and upload them i will and hopefully get some good newS!! (although i have great eyesight and don't see anything myself>)
thanks....