WHY WHY WHY

[evthing4reason]

Yesterday we met with the specialist to get the final results on the autopsy/amnio, and was told that I only have 0.75% more of a chance of trisomy 13 happening again then someone my age...so not much really. and was told we could offically start ttc (we were anyways, my fertile time is RIGHT NOW). Today I went to my family Dr to check-in before I go back to work tomorrow. Well i woke up this morning with pretty bad cramps, all week i thought it was from overdoing it in the garden on sunday. He did external exam and said with my history he wanted me to see gyn for a complete internal, and arranged for me to be seen at the ER (a few weeks after i delivered my baby at 19 weeks i was put back in the hospital for a couple of days due to uterine infection, then spent 5 more days going to hospital every 8 hours for antibidotics.) So after waiting in the hallway for a couple of hours in emerge I was seen, I have ANOTHER BAD infection in my uterus! They are trying oral antibioditics, but not sure if they will work. AND the said NO TTC. I am so upset, its been almost 3 months, i need to get on with my life. I am an esthetician and had clients booked who have been waiting for the last 3 months to get in, every day i don't work i risk losing them and my income. The Dr said at least 2 weeks till i can go back. I just want to get pregnant and have the baby i deserve. Why do I have to keep going through this? why can't i move on with my life. WHY WHY WHY??????????????

[babyscience]

I am so sorry you are going through all that...as if it wasnt enough you lost your baby.  At least you got a positive result from seeing the doctor.  Your risk for trisomy 13 is really low.  Try to keep your spirits up....your baby will come to you soon!!!  You just need to focus on getting your body healthy again.

[sweetangel7]

Sorry to hear of your infection...I hope it clears up soon and then you can be back to ttc =)  Make sure you take care of yourself...try not to think of anyone else other than yourself and getting yourself healthy and rejuvenated...your health is priceless!  Good luck with your job...hopefully everyone will understand...I can't imagine them not!  They'd all just be evil =)

[illsurvive]

ya sometimes we have to suffer wat we dont deserce that. but remeber that if from one side got take from us then from other side i give us alot!!!!! jus faith in god. u know in november i went to thegyne for my prenatal checkup cos i was trying to have baby it wasnt happening. i got diagnose with HEP B!!!!!!!!!!!! i cried n cried som many weeks. Now i accepted that. But i dont deserve that why me!!!!!!!!!! i was keep asking to god. Cos i never had sex before my marriage even a kiss. and now i m pregnant.thsi is wat i ever wanted to.i m happy now n i thanks to god he gave me baby.i m 5 week pregnant n i hope my 9 month will be happyily pass.

[JoyRenee]

Oh honey I'm so sorry!!!

And... what does an esthetician do?

*HUGS* I know this is hard and I can't say I understand, but I'm here for you!

[martikadragoon]

I'm so sorry! I hope the antibiotics knock this infection out and you can get that baby you deserve SO MUCH!

God bless

[evthing4reason]

as an esthetician I do manicures, pedicures, facials,makeup, realxation massage, body treatments...I have a good cliental but the longer i am out the more content they get going to the other girls. My job is my passion, making other people feel good about themselves. It what I pour my heart and soul into, so not only am i missing my baby, but also a big chunk of my life