I need help; i hate my life

[pickleperson421]

i hate my life. i am a young teenager, and i feel as though i have no friends. i have maybe 3, my parents moved me to a new school so i am disconnecting from all three of them. i feel like i have no friends at my school and everyone hate me. I've already been in a children's mental facility for a week and a half, and i basically feel worse, or at least not better.I'm on pills for ADHD and we're trying to find an anti-depressant to work. i hate my life, and nothing is fun anymore. my favorite things are not fun anymore. i hate my parents and everyone else too. i want to kill myself but i don't have the nerve, so instead i sit around wishing i could and thinking of a painless way to die, but so far there are none. i want my life back! I want to be happy again, and not upset all the time! is there ANY way to help me? what can i do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

[ParamedFlorena]

A familymember of mine used to feel a lot the same as you. He lost hope in the blink of an eye. If he missed out on his ADHD medications it was all a down-path for him. I don't know exactly what to tell you but I know that there is a cure for you out there just waiting for to be detected by you. It's not easy to find the right medications for you maybe, but once they're found you're going to notice a great difference.
Continue to look together with the team working with you, ok? There IS a good combination for you to help you keep the ADHD in check.

Welcome to the depression forum. It's always possible to post back or in a new thread if you need support. That's what we're here for! I do also know that there are many understanding members in the teen-depression forum too.


Check back in!

Florena

[John_jb1]

Hello,

As ParamedFlorena said, make sure you do take the ADHD meds. In the mean time whilst finding a suitible anit-depressant med. I'd reccomend you take some god liver oil, as these can help your brain think and improve concentration to a extent.
I'm not saying there would be huge changes, but you'd be able to think slightly better.

Another good thing to do is to re-live good experiences, atleast in your mind of course. When trying to sleep you can close your eyes and concentrate immensely on a time that you were really happy, say you were out and about with your family in a good place or something. You have to feel what you felt, see what you saw and hear what you heard, it has to be exact.

When worrying about school, you could try "living in the now" if you start worrying about school or something, stop and look around you and think about things that are happening now, and right in front of you. When you go school "take it as it comes"

Good luck

- John -

[Hensley258]

Hey dude. I uderstand what your going thru because I was also the same way when I was your age. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but I swear it does get better.

I will PM you soon.

[xanweaner]

I'm sorry that you're feeling so empty and alone...it's scary to feel that way when you're thirteen...but there is a positive side to this. Do you have any activities that you like to do? Is your head clear enough to think about doing something that used to make you happy? School is almost out...do you have anything planned for the summer? Are you allowed by your parents to spend time with your old friends?

Do you like anything in the arts - dance, acting, music, drawing, painting....these things can really help with your depression...you would be amazed. Try something different - and don't lose hope...you can feel better again....

[Anajule]

I think you are very sad because you have had a great loss - moving from your friends and what you were used to.  Sometimes parents think that it's no big deal to move especially for their kids, but it is.  You have experienced a great loss and it is natural to feel the way you do - you are grieving and you had no control over the move, but one day you will control your life.  Try to think of this as a temporary situation.  Dream about what you would like your life to be and work towards it.  Try not to worry about making new friends - take care of yourself and the friends will follow.  Think of yourself as one of your closest friends and be the person you would be to them.  

[prozacprincess]

First of all I would just like to say that I love your name, Pickleperson.  Second of all, my heart goes out to you.  Depression is like a roller coaster.  One minute you're up and the next you're down.  Just know this, you aren't alone.  Keep talking to us and like someone else recommended, on the teen forum.  Don't lose contact with people, that just makes the depression worse, at least it does for me.

Hugs
Prozacprincess

[Natureday]

You should listen to some Abraham Hicks, it will make you a lot happier.
SHe talks about how to only think the thoughts that will help you.
You can watch some videos on youtube.
This is not spam, I am not making any money referring you to listen and be happier.

[xanweaner]

Are you still out there? I've been reading these great messages to you, and I'm wondering what you think about these notes of concern on your behalf?

Let us know how it's going....it's obvious that we care, even if we haven't met you....

[pickleperson421]

I'm sorry i havent been replying, and i really do appreciate your help. i'll get to that later. (the reason i haven't been watching is because ive felt really akward about using this and id feel more akward if my parents somehow found out.)
now to xanweaner- about your first post, finding something to do that i love, thats a problem. there are SO MANY things i used to love doing. i used to love to watch tv play computer, draw and i play 3 intruments. but for the past few years i havnt enjoyed doing it. when i get upset my parents tell me to find something to do to take my mind off it, but everything makes me bored. i dont enjoy doing ANYTHING and my parents wonce said ti could be like depression or something, but my point is ocupying myself wont work.

sry my parents are home and i dont want them to see me doing this so i gtg- ill come back later and all. thank you all SO MUCH for your kind words though. its nice to know  someone cares!(and they havent even met me!)

[xanweaner]

I am so sorry again...but I'm glad that we've made you feel better, knowing that we care...perhaps it's time to find some new interests. I would suggest getting into nature somehow - hiking, bonding with animals, etc. That might bring some lightness - I found that watching nature and feeding ducks make me feel good inside, even if it was temporary.....might sound silly, but it did......
just a thought......

[girl731]

hey pickle -
judging from the name of this post, we've all been there.

when i was a teen and had the exact feelings, a very wise therapist said "you know, your 13 (15, 19, whatever) year old self may want to die right now but i'll bet that your 25, 39, 42, 87 (again, whatever) year old self will be really ticked if you kill yourself."
i thought that was pretty cool
and he was right.

every day isn't easy and some years are better than others, but i've got to tell you, it's really fun having experiences that i couldn't imagine when i was a teenager.

some other (possibly uncomfortable) advice - let your parents know.  it's surprising how much they get it.  hard to believe, but they were actually teenagers once, too.

maybe a simple "hey mom, i haven't been feeling so great lately.  kinda down about..... (fill in blank) did you have experiences like that when you were my age?"  then let her talk.  you'll be amazed at how they open up.  even if it takes a while.

take care

[pickleperson421]

my parents know how im feeling and i go to a therapist and (are trying to) take meds and stuff. its just the akwardness of them knowing that im on a website or watever (im REALLY self-concios) i do love nature, i have 7 pets and they are really fun and my hamsters make me feel so much better seeing them so pathetic little and cute, but it hasnt been working lately. i love to hike and iyt makes me feel so good, but there's no hiking anywhere near where i live so thats out of the question.

at times i feel like i want to die. yesterday i was feeling really upset. i forget why, but i was. i saw a sharp knifew my dad was using to make salad, and i picked it up. i wanted so bad to just slice myself up slit my wrists or something, but i didnt want the pain. i wanted to die and i saw an opportunity but the thought of the pain made me decide against it. i wanted to take a few bottles of childrens motrin. but i was afraid i wouldnt take enough and id just end up really hurt or something. i dont want to hurt, like cutting myself, i wantr to die. i wont ever try to hurt myself i know, beause i love some people a little and dont want them to hurt. and i dont want myself to be in pain. but a lot of the time i wish i wasnt s afraid.

[therese83]

Hi
It sounds to me that you have very strong feelings that are sometimes hard to handle.  You should not have to go through this alone as you are only a child.  It can be a normal part of being a teenager, haveing strong emotions,

Do you have someone you can talk to about your feelings.  Is there a counsellor in the school?  or a trusted relative?

Have you tried writing down your feelings somehow getting them out.
Try not to bottle things up.

Best of luck to you

[pickleperson421]

i do write in a diary on the computer. i like it because its locked, like a real diary, and no one knows the code. i feel free to swear my brains out, which makes me feel relieved kinda that i can actually say how mad i am, and i have NEVER sweared out loud in my LIFE.

sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesnt.

thank you all SO much for your help and support.
when you leave a comment and i  comment back, it may seem like im telling you you're wrong. im not- but im not sure WHAT im saying... but its nothing bad, so thats ok