If feel the same plz help me

[confusedritenow]

I dont know why I feel this way, i feel withdrawn, introverted, lethargic, i want to sleep most of the time, i dont enjoy my boyfriend, i dont want to be around people, i feel angry and snap at people, i'm pessimistic even thou I got a job i wanted. Its strange... im gaining weight and down seem to care, but its not the first time i felt like this, i felt like this a lot of times, its doesnt go away no matter how much i try to ignore it, or distract myself. I'm afraid to tell anyone cause they'll just tell me to get over it,and i cant. I'm 21 and i feel helpless, its really hard to go on about life, i have frequent emotional swings and get sad about stupidest things. Naturally, i a balanced person, but i feel like a rug been pulled from under me, no matter what i get in life,  i dont feel genuinely happy about it. Its hard to get excited, or emotional about good things, and feel indifferent about bad things kind of like doesn't really matter what happens. I have recurrent thoughts of worthlessness, and suicide thoughts pop in my head. I hate  being weak, or showing weakness,  and this stubborness has gotten me no help. I  dont know what else to do, i dont have anyone to talk to  about this, as people dismiss all my attempts and just call me lazy. Im really tired of not feeling good. Plz if you feel the same and you know how to get over it, or at least to confirm  im not crazy.

[Venora Moonwind]

I think most of here have felt as you do right now. First make and appointment with an md and get your thyroid tested.A malfunctioning thyroid will make you have all of the things you talked about.Always rule out something physical fist. After that get an appopintment with a psychiatryst to evaluated.
In the meantime there are things you can do to help elevate your mood.
  diet eat 6small meals a day . Lots of friut,veggies and grains.3 oz of protien lean meats.
NO caffiene or sugar as these both aggravate depression.
Exercise at least 30 mins a day even if its just a brisk walk. this will raise your seritonin levels and lift your mood.
so let me know when you get your thyroid tested and let me know what Your TSH numbers are.It should be between 3.0 and .3. Alot of doctors dont know this and tend to dismiss you if its even at a 5.
you can talk to me anytime and PM anytime. I will be there to listen
Love Venora

[Hensley258]

Well, let me first start by saying that your not crazy. My friend, there is a very good chance that you are suffering a very real clinical Depression.

This disease is not related to normal sadness. In fact it can feel much different.
I'm obviously not trying to diagnose you online, but as a sufferer myself, I can tell that your description of your symptoms are very much consistant with this disease.

You must understand that this condition can absolutly make you feel as if your going insane. Trust me, your not going insane, but that really is how it makes you feel.

I will not sugar coat things. If this is what your suffering from, then it will not just go away on it's own. You will need to seek and get professional help. It's the only way.

Do yourself a favor and get a professional evaluation.

Let us know how it goes.

[Hensley258]

OH! Forget to mention.... First do what Venora Moonwind mentioned. It's always a good idea to get your thyroid checked first. Sometimes Thyroid problems can mimic Severe depression. Always good to rule that out first.