Honesty Time

[RBC3]

Okay well I have been takin 8 mgs. of suboxone but I have relapsed on cocaine for the past three nights and this morning at 3 I got pulled over by the police becuz I was in a hurry to get home and smoke crack , what a dumb azz I am, jesus, I started smokin when a friend of my came by and got me friday night and it started the vicious cycle all over again but last night I went and bought some myself.... anyways I just had to be honest with someone and admit my shortcomings but other than that suboxone is goin well , i like it I guess next week I ll start with half a pill , Keri

[Stephen823]

I was under the impression that  suboxone taken with any other drug did not get you high - I think that was what my dr. said-
Do not beat yourself up - but please get back to your recovery.
Thank you for being honest.
Steve

[RBC3]

ooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhh Tink , I miss you , I had to pay for the suboxone , 120 pills for $600.00 , my medicaid didn't [pay for it either so.... I only got half 300 pills , and I am only takin one tab a day , fladdict have been talkin about me goin down to three quarters of a pill saturday morning then to half then to a quarter , Tink I just no better about crack I can't use cocaine anymore , one is to many a thousand is not enough for me and..... pills are the same way for me now , its so good to no someone else has been where I have been this weekend , I dont want anymore to do with crack , its over , been there done that , you  no , Fladdict suggested some soul searchin , which I think is in order
Glad to hear things are goin good with you kids , I spend 17 months without my son so I no how it is to finally get your hands on then , Thanx girl for every thing , I luv U keri

[RBC3]

yeah a pill free crack head is not a good image , soul searching yes, and that girl is out of my life , she just got  out of prison three weeks ago and I dont want anything else to with her , but I need to get my mind right , I can do this  , I have done it  thx babe keri

[tink1127]

GIRL....i have so been where you are...I did the "coke" thing for about 5 straight yrs!!!! i have a hole in my nose now the size of a nickel, actually one of my BIGGEST FEARS is getting hit in the nose and my nose just "falling off" and this past fall my brother got into crack and got my and my b/f started on it. We only did it for a couple of months (which is way to long if you ask me) and i know what you mean when you say that she is no longer your friend. Crack is a horrible addictive drug!!!!! thats one of the reasons why i moved out of Florida (but not the only reason) to get away from the "friends" that did drugs. its so easy to get "caught up" in that lifestyle. i am VERY PROUD TO SAY that we havent done ANY illegal drugs in over 7 months now!!!! and when i think about them, i actually get sick just thinking about how they make me feel. its good that you were honest about what you did. Not so much for telling us here, but just being honest period is so good for your own self worth.

I haven't been on much at all lately. the kids are keeping me sooooo super busy!!!! and i love every single minute of it. But tonight they're staying over at their friends house so i finally have a little "me time" between cleaning, laundry and getting ready for tomorrow, of coarse, LOL

so how have you been doing otherwise??? i'm happy to hear your doing the suboxone...i really want to do that too, but i have state medicaid insurance and havent been able to find one single subox dr. around here that will take it!!!

luv ya,
tink  :)

[FLaddict]

I am glad you were honest... will your Sub doc drug test you??? Some of them do... I think if you are serious about getting clean then you need to make some changes.. sounds like some of your friends are not the best for someone attempting recovery... I would do some soul searching... and figure out what you really want.. it may be hard but if you are gonna do it you have to do it all the way..  you can't be a pill free crack head and still sleep at night with a good image of yourself..

XoXO
stephanie

[beachtowel]

That is why I have posted so many times stopping using is the easy part, when people stop using they think there cured.......what you did is very normal for an addict........don't beat yourself up about it.......learn from it and try again but you have to have a plan, support and some after care........

drug counseling, N/A .........something..........

[beachtowel]

You have to cut good friends out of your life if they use............

Someone posted the other day he can go out and be with drinkers and not drink.......he says its all willpower what a load of ****..............

One of the toughest things in the world is to cut off the people, good friends even family members who use..........you have to stay away from them or you will be using with them..........that is the way of an addict.........

[singha]

just pick yourself up and brush it off. We have to go through our ups and downs...such is life as an addict. You will be fine have faith. Good luck and I am rooting for you. Thank you for honesty.