I AM LOSING IT AND DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!

[Hopeless_Army_Wife]

I am the wife of a 3rd time deployed soldier and feel like the world is on me all at once. Normally I can handle my normal life but lately things are different. My entire family has stopped talking to me and wants nothing to do with me, 2 of my animals died, my brother-in-law died, my sister blew up my car, and there is alot more all at once! I can't handle it. I am always thinking of just ending it and saying good bye to the world but I am able to stop doing something stupid. But how do I stop the flood of emotions and inapprioate crying and bad thoughts?

[Tom703]

I would suggest you contact mental health military health facility for assistance.  You sound like you are dealing with too much stress.  Military wives also have groups that meet for such problems.  Find out where they meet and go.
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[Hopeless_Army_Wife]

I wish I could go and talk to someone but unfortunaly with the way the Army works and my husband's rank it is "not approiate" for me to be having these feelings. I have tried to talk to my husband but all he says is sorry but there is nothing I can do over here. I feel so alone and useless. I want to cry over little things but when my puppy died a couple of days ago I didn't shed one tear. What is wrong with me??? I am suppose to be strong but this time I can't take anymore from the world and hate everyone and everything!!

[remar]

i'm glad you found this site. there are so many caring people here for you to talk too. can you go to a private dr. instead of a military one? your going through alot right now and having to deal with it on your own sounds like it's really stressing you out. i'm sorry about your puppy. take care. remar

[Hopeless_Army_Wife]

Thank you all for the comments, but I am positive there is nothing I can do. As suggested earlier about seeing a private doc off the base it won't work. 1st they will want my insurance which means then the Army still will find out and eventually it will get back to my husband and his chain of command. And 2nd if I did manage to find someone who had a small cost or was free if I got going there (trust me would happen, I see Army wives all the time) same thing would happen and it would get back. I don't know why this deployment is so different. Hell, last time he left my brother died, dad died, and house burned down in a 4 month time frame and I handled everything as usual by myself and now this time I am crying in public at a car dealership because they won't let me buy a car without him being here to say he is the main income maker and has no problem's with a new bill. His commander's already think I am a fruitcake because I told them he needs to come home since the state took custody of my step-daughter from his ex-wife and then turn around and placed her back in the home and now she is living with 2 convicted sex offenders and 1 of them is the kid who raped her and her 2 sisters. Am I just being a "dramaqueen" or am I really going nuts?

[remar]

you are not being a drama queen. why can't your husband do anything about his daughter? i would be fliping out. it might be a really good thing if you two had custody of her. hang in there and keep posting here, you will get support from us. take care. remar

[jo929]

many things happen, but do not ever give up hope there is a 24 hr hotline, and they do undestand when onw has problems, also why would you needing some help ruin his carrer, can you not go home to visit mom or dad, or are they, gone or are they the ones that you say hate you if you could go somewhere for a visit, you can get help they havr free clinics I know you have had many problems but try your best to cope, and keep writing, if you ant to talk with me just click on my profile, i am good at listening,    lots  luck  jo   ps  where there is a will there is a way