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by bull172, Jul 19, 2008 07:17AM
Well it has been 41 days since my last vicodin use.....up until yesterday i lost track of how many days.....wsnt even thinkin about it.....i have been doing real good at work, and with the family.....i was smoking a little bit of pot on the weekends to alleviate the boredom....

ok heres where im at

i had a HUGE setback at work......was working on an acct for the past 3 weeks that wld make me $20,000 a month....out of nowhere yeterday i found out tht i lost the account because my contact is a snake in the grass weasel.....

I WANT TO USE AGAIN!

if i did uses again......would all tht i have accomplished (recovery wise)  be wasted?    can i uses just a vicodin here and there without going into full blown addiction and full blown withdrawels?

please be honest, i know nobody wants me to use again, but just be honest!    
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by bull172, Jul 19, 2008 07:19AM
also, after 41 days if i popped 20 mgs of vicodin right nw how wld my body recact to it?

by sadinmichigan, Jul 19, 2008 07:22AM
Goodmorning..Congratulations on 41 days..Thats excellent..ok..here goes.lol  While i am very sorry you got shafted like that you know that it is too hard to just take a pill here and there. Before you know it your going to be right back where you started and of course we don't want you to use!! Ask yourself this...what will it change about anything going on in your life/family/work? Nothing, but you risk yourself by becomming addicted again. And while nobody can take the clean time away..it would be wasted..please don't do it..♥Lisa

by 10356, Jul 19, 2008 07:23AM
One would lead to another and another and another Then yes you would be throwing away that clean time Part of recovery is dealing with weasels and boredom nothing wrong with a little bud put please do yourself a favor a get rid of the Vics.. Your family needs you whole.. lesa

by gizzy32, Jul 19, 2008 07:26AM
well first of all, it should be you that does not want to use again. things happen in life that stress us out and **** us off, but using drugs is just a cop out. i did this for 5 years thinking i would not get addicted again, but the fact is im addicted for life and can't use at all. although recovery is never wasted, this would be a relpase for you and NO  you can't take a vicodin here and there. using any drugs, besides for legit reasons is abusing. make the right choice, the answer is simple. congrats on 41 days, don't waste it, cause 1 pill turns into 5 pills and next thing your full blown addicted again and every relapse gets harder and harder to go through. good luck and don't be stupid:) take care

by merrymaria, Jul 19, 2008 07:26AM
To: bull172
i can not really answer that.  i ve thought of 1 here and there too but too be quite honest i think if i took just one i d be hooked again because i have a very addictive personality, but maybe some people  could handle 1.  i only have 15 days and i m so against them.  my husband has a big bottle of perks sitting right in front of me and i have to look at them everyday and be strong.  i d love one here and there but no.  now maybe if i had unbearable pain i would but you have to be careful.  i dont think you d have wds but you have to make it just one pill if you are that strong.  me  i dont think i am.  good luck to you    maria

by joann1975, Jul 19, 2008 07:27AM
Congrats on the 41 days....I would have to say DON'T DO IT you will end up right where you started after a matter of time... it will not fix your issues at work...it won't get revenge on the weasel...it will only hurt you not help you!

Please don't do it!

Keep trucking....I know you are stronger than this!

by fengirl09, Jul 19, 2008 07:36AM
To: bull172
Of course the choice to take that pill is always yours, but let me tell you I just went through this after almost 30 days and had to start my tracker all over again and believe me nobody is harder on me than me.  The one thing I learned through this slip was no matter how long I am off the junk I am always an addict and I will have that problem for the rest of my life. It will not rule my life forever, but I will have to stop and think and be honest w/myself about it everyday I am tempted to turn back to it.  It was NOT worth it to me so just really think, is it to you and the feeling will be there when the pill is gone.

Good luck
fengirl09

by bull172, Jul 19, 2008 10:43AM
please somebody answer this...please


if i was taking 60 mgs day for 3 years....(was taking 20 mgs 3 times a day)

and been clean for 41 days, how will my body react if i took 20 mgs right now?

by addict3, Jul 19, 2008 11:42AM
I think they will make you sick to your stomach.

Will that get the account back? Will you feel better about the whole deal in 4 -5 hours?
I respectfully ask tou go back and re-read some of your posts before you do this, I remember reading some of them and responding to you. Do you ?

by mr.lucky66, Jul 19, 2008 11:52AM
It can be hard to stay off drugs when frustration and anger surface. It may help to talk to someone in person. I don't think smoking pot is a good idea as it set me back a few times anfter getting clean.

by NautyOne, Jul 19, 2008 04:20PM
HELL NO !!  I think you know the answer to that question.  Sure you can pop a 20..but I tell you RIGHT NOW  if you do.... It wont be long before YOU know what your next post will be saying.........

Need I say more.  41 days ......Do you really want to Risk that?  think about it.

Luv,
Nauty...............

by VicUser, Jul 19, 2008 04:32PM
From my experiance, I have been taking vics fro almost 8 yrs, you will get a buzz from them and then after bit wish you hadn't done it. I understand the desire to "get away" but do you really think that 20 mg will help for long? Please stay strong and find something else to take your mind off of this.

by worried878, Jul 19, 2008 04:46PM
Can an addict use every now and then successfully....NO...not if u were a true addict...stress is what will make someone cave everytime...this is a test for sure...u would be proud if u made it thru without using....if u do pop a pill...how do u think u would feel after u swallowed it?   i am not sure how much u used...but i can almost assure u that ur tolerence is still there and one pill will not do much of anything cept make u want another....u will end up back where u were before u quit in a very short time and then would have the stress of that to deal with as well...our minds forget painful things we encountered very quickly..it is a built in self protection mechanism...if we remembered pain as intense as it was during the episode..women would never have children again!....stop and remember what u went thru and why you quit...none of that has changed...aftercare is so important right now as well

by NautyOne, Jul 19, 2008 05:01PM
Worried878 just hit the nail on the head...thank you.  Opiates are not prescribed for life stress...They are for managing PAIN,  and if STRESS is your reason for taking it.........Your In TROUBLE.........

Nauty...........

by worried878, Jul 19, 2008 05:01PM
Whoops...i see now that u already did take that first ill...i guess it did not make u feel too bad or u wouldnt want to take more...i guess everyone is different....the fact that u r posting about it usually means it is bothering u tho...be safej

by toxictome, Jul 19, 2008 05:19PM
Instead of popping 20 mgs.... how about hitting 20 AA or NA mtgs....your life will be much better..and you will not have the guilt or shame to deal with...which would put you right back on the merry-go-round.

I think you know the answer to this question.........
keep working it!!!!! (recovery, I'm talking about!)  lol

by bull172, Jul 20, 2008 09:33AM
the past 48 hours have been really bad!   feels likeim going thru wd's all over again and im on day 42!


yesterday i smoked a little bud, and relaxed....STILL THE URGE OF A VICODIN HAS BEEN KNAWING AT MY MIND!

I dont know what happened here....for weeks i didnt even remember what a vicodin was!

NOW I NEED EM ALL OVER AGAIN!

IM ABOUT TO CRACK

by Soon2BMrsTurner, Jul 20, 2008 09:40AM
Whatever you do dont CRACK !!! Hang tough , we all know that taking it will  not make things any better and will only make you want more. Take your mind off it as best you can , walk , read a good book, take a shower, watch a movie. whatever it takes to get past the really bad thinking! Hang in there you can do this

by bull172