paying_it_forward's MedHelp Blogs http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1460021 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en Down and out.... I don't know what to do anymore. I'm sick of "complaining". I'm sick of the one side people see paying_it_forward Mon, 08 Aug 2011 09:07:52 -0500 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/306633/Down-and-out http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/306633/Down-and-out Appauling "doctor". So today being a part of the easter/ANZAC day long weekend my local doctors clinic was closed... I paying_it_forward Mon, 25 Apr 2011 00:10:54 -0500 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285324/Appauling-doctor http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/285324/Appauling-doctor I got my ADHD diagnosis... Yep...i have it. I feel relieved to know that i'm just not a nut job lol I've been given Dexamphet paying_it_forward Thu, 24 Mar 2011 05:20:13 -0500 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/277911/I-got-my-ADHD-diagnosis http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/277911/I-got-my-ADHD-diagnosis Drugs and the damage they do are real. I just found out that one of my uncles has only been given 2 years to live. I don't know exactly what paying_it_forward Wed, 16 Mar 2011 04:53:07 -0500 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275883/Drugs-and-the-damage-they-do-are-real http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/275883/Drugs-and-the-damage-they-do-are-real Temptations and concerns... Lately I've been thinking about drugs...not the one i was addicted to...my drug of choice was just pl paying_it_forward Fri, 11 Mar 2011 04:27:45 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274704/Temptations-and-concerns http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274704/Temptations-and-concerns Updateee Today school was good :) It was my AOD specific class...we got into groups and i presented a talk and paying_it_forward Thu, 10 Mar 2011 02:11:15 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274459/Updateee http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/274459/Updateee Not coping at all. Not with addiction...tomorrow makes 70 days off suboxone...still haven't taken a painkiller or drug. paying_it_forward Wed, 23 Feb 2011 23:32:19 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/270902/Not-coping-at-all http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/270902/Not-coping-at-all Underlying disorder... So this is my second week off the mood stabilizers...I'm starting to think i may have been better off paying_it_forward Wed, 09 Feb 2011 01:53:25 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/267069/Underlying-disorder http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/267069/Underlying-disorder Butterflies... So many feelings of anxiety tonight...probably because i know that tomorrow i'll be meeting up with m paying_it_forward Sat, 05 Feb 2011 05:55:20 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/266068/Butterflies http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/266068/Butterflies Made a trip to the doctors... I went to my doctor yesterday...i could proudly tell him that i was 45 days no suboxone and no relaps paying_it_forward Mon, 31 Jan 2011 21:08:42 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/264892/Made-a-trip-to-the-doctors http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/264892/Made-a-trip-to-the-doctors Down...down...down... Something has just hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel really depressed all of a sudden right out of paying_it_forward Sun, 09 Jan 2011 03:12:36 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/258722/Downdowndown http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/258722/Downdowndown Weight problems... Since gaining back the 30kg i lost i feel that no guy could find me attractive i guess my dad plays a paying_it_forward Tue, 04 Jan 2011 01:40:51 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/257302/Weight-problems http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/257302/Weight-problems Reflections...And 2 days clean. I was just looking at some old pictures of me when i was between the ages of 17 to about 22...I know paying_it_forward Sun, 19 Dec 2010 07:39:46 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/253744/ReflectionsAnd-2-days-clean http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/253744/ReflectionsAnd-2-days-clean Well I'm almost there... Tomorrow I'm going to do my final suboxone reduction. I'll be cutting it down to one quarter of a mil paying_it_forward Sun, 12 Dec 2010 20:48:35 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/252259/Well-Im-almost-there http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/252259/Well-Im-almost-there Finding out 25 years later. And ranting. Just found out that my father pushed and shoved and abused my mother while PREGNANT WITH ME. Could th paying_it_forward Wed, 08 Dec 2010 05:47:05 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/251171/Finding-out-25-years-later-And-ranting http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/251171/Finding-out-25-years-later-And-ranting Goin' down again! Just had to write...I'm so excited...tomorrow I'm dropping my dose of Suboxone to half a milligram. A paying_it_forward Mon, 06 Dec 2010 07:52:09 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/250690/Goin-down-again http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/250690/Goin-down-again The good, the bad, and...the gosh darn horrible. So I went to Melbourne (about 2 hours from where i now live) to see my doctor and get a new script fo paying_it_forward Mon, 29 Nov 2010 19:25:57 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/249258/The-good--the-bad--andthe-gosh-darn-horrible http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/249258/The-good--the-bad--andthe-gosh-darn-horrible Bored of everything bored bored bored bored bored. so so sick of people. everyone! I'm sick of sitting round doing paying_it_forward Thu, 18 Nov 2010 01:25:04 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/246682/Bored-of-everything http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/246682/Bored-of-everything Feeling defeated. I just learned a friend has a serious perscription drug problem...he says he's taking largagtol, sera paying_it_forward Wed, 10 Nov 2010 08:52:55 -0600 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/244722/Feeling-defeated http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/244722/Feeling-defeated Numb and screaming on the inside. Title pretty much says it...I have that numb feeling...frustrated....i really feel like i am screamin paying_it_forward Sun, 31 Oct 2010 08:41:17 -0500 http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/242193/Numb-and-screaming-on-the-inside http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/242193/Numb-and-screaming-on-the-inside