https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/4614494 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en Hello my dear friends , I've been up and down and all around. I guess I will give a quick run down SmilingBright Sun, 08 Jun 2014 11:41:35 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1105232/Im-BACk https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1105232/Im-BACk You know with all that being said In my latest journal entry I know that my heart and what's inside i SmilingBright Tue, 17 Dec 2013 18:34:20 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/985817/The-HEART https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/985817/The-HEART Sorry in advance if this is hard to read. Trying to write in my journal quickly bf I get ready for SmilingBright Tue, 17 Dec 2013 06:21:32 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/985513/Puzzle-pieces https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/985513/Puzzle-pieces People say after relapse ..... What are you doing different this time around!!! Hmmm. Well ALOT in SmilingBright Fri, 22 Nov 2013 21:00:43 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/956524/Telling-my-secret-and-aftercare https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/956524/Telling-my-secret-and-aftercare First of all I'm so excited to be going to church that I woke up at 5:45 am for service at 9!! Lol. SmilingBright Sun, 17 Nov 2013 06:33:22 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/947837/Excited https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/947837/Excited Ok so it's almost the 2 week mark A day shy of it. I've had several tests so far and some anxiety SmilingBright Sat, 16 Nov 2013 07:15:58 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/947306/2-weeks-WOW https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/947306/2-weeks-WOW Oh how I miss you!!!! My first day making myself run a little. Omg it feels so good yet pushing th SmilingBright Fri, 15 Nov 2013 15:50:14 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/946817/Endorphins https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/946817/Endorphins As I sit here thinking ......wow I'm kicking methadones butt right now. It feels amazing. I do get SmilingBright Fri, 15 Nov 2013 09:28:41 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/946662/One-day-at-a-time https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/946662/One-day-at-a-time As I sit here thinking of all I have to be thankful for I realize I need to keep my mind focused on a SmilingBright Thu, 14 Nov 2013 15:29:57 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/945140/Reflection https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/945140/Reflection Well I've learned so much in the last year since joining mh. I've tried quiting once bf and had unre SmilingBright Tue, 12 Nov 2013 12:11:59 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/942861/Being-realistic https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/942861/Being-realistic Well I'm excited woke up at 6 am on Sunday morning to get spiritually fed. The one vital thing I kno SmilingBright Sun, 10 Nov 2013 07:14:28 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/941047/Feeling-optimistic https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/941047/Feeling-optimistic Right now I'm feel like I'm moving in the right direction. I went to church again this weekend. Fe SmilingBright Sun, 22 Sep 2013 14:03:02 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/882234/Going-in-right-direction https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/882234/Going-in-right-direction I got 60 hrs into my detox and just couldn't handle it anymore. My taper wasn't slow enough. I went SmilingBright Sat, 14 Sep 2013 09:05:13 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/872035/Had-to-continue-my-taper https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/872035/Had-to-continue-my-taper Well trying to get my endorphins pumping w out pills. On the treadmill finally. I've been so tired SmilingBright Fri, 13 Sep 2013 16:56:06 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/871214/Endorphins-day-1 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/871214/Endorphins-day-1 Took my b12 and 5 http first thing this morning!!!! One thing I realized last night as I was starvin SmilingBright Fri, 13 Sep 2013 07:58:24 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/871081/Day-1 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/871081/Day-1 Today I had a revelation!!!! It's time for me to JUMP!!!!!! So here we go again!!! Last dose was a SmilingBright Thu, 12 Sep 2013 19:46:15 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/870174/Its-TIME https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/870174/Its-TIME Feeling positive that I will make it through this time around and stick w my plan. I'm tapering and SmilingBright Tue, 10 Sep 2013 20:16:55 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/867055/Believing https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/867055/Believing I'm trying to make myself run this morning. I hate that im just a short amount of time you can lose SmilingBright Sun, 08 Sep 2013 12:12:28 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/864580/Need-motivation https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/864580/Need-motivation Just wanted to let all of my buddies on mh know I'm still around. Still doing a long slow taper and SmilingBright Fri, 06 Sep 2013 20:54:30 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/862281/Still-around https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/862281/Still-around Yesterday I wanted to hug my patient and tell him I understand what he's going through. Sigh.... SmilingBright Fri, 09 Aug 2013 12:01:04 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/839895/Compassion https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/839895/Compassion