https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/5762143 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en Started yesterday horrible. Just angry and sad. Managed to have a couple of good hours but then last jenkrist Mon, 22 Jul 2013 08:44:11 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/828031/day-12-still-dark https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/828031/day-12-still-dark Woke up sad and extremely angry this morning for no reason. I can't seem to let go of this anger or s jenkrist Sun, 21 Jul 2013 10:59:54 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825978/day-11-not-starting-well https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825978/day-11-not-starting-well Wow. I can't believe what I did today. I did housework until 10 am then hit the beach. Was there unti jenkrist Sat, 20 Jul 2013 21:07:50 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825769/goodnight-day-10 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825769/goodnight-day-10 Soooooooooo craving a buzz this morning. Not gonna get one but it is very hard not to take some pills jenkrist Sat, 20 Jul 2013 08:42:26 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825587/good-morning-day-10 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825587/good-morning-day-10 Mornings are still s little tough. Even though I get lots of sleep I find I'm very tired in the morni jenkrist Fri, 19 Jul 2013 08:13:28 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825233/good-morning-day-9 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/825233/good-morning-day-9 Finally feeling good. So proud of myself. Finally feeling like myself. I have so many things I can do jenkrist Thu, 18 Jul 2013 17:28:53 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823833/hello-happiness-again https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823833/hello-happiness-again Well I had a good sleep last night. Mornings still tough because I crave that buzz that been getting jenkrist Thu, 18 Jul 2013 07:41:44 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823477/good-morning-day-8 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823477/good-morning-day-8 It was still a tough day and I did use some meds that help with the anxiety and hopeless feeling. But jenkrist Wed, 17 Jul 2013 21:59:13 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823172/day-7-and-still-winning https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/823172/day-7-and-still-winning Still feeling extremely hopeless. No motivation to just get up and live right now. However I have a b jenkrist Wed, 17 Jul 2013 08:41:38 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/822650/morning-of-day-7 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/822650/morning-of-day-7 Not getting easier. Getting a lot harder. Finding it extremely difficult not to go get done pills ton jenkrist Tue, 16 Jul 2013 18:34:52 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/821487/day-6-end-of-work-day https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/821487/day-6-end-of-work-day 6am which means tone to get ready fit another day at work. Thank god I have my husband at work with m jenkrist Tue, 16 Jul 2013 07:59:45 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/821211/good-morning-day-6 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/821211/good-morning-day-6 Well today was not good. I was in years for half of it all while trying to run a business and manage jenkrist Mon, 15 Jul 2013 19:10:09 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/820342/end-of-day-5 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/820342/end-of-day-5 Good morning me. Actually it really doesn't feel like a good morning. Feeling extremely anxious. Mond jenkrist Mon, 15 Jul 2013 08:45:15 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/820007/July-15th-day-5 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/820007/July-15th-day-5