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Off the Wagon

Nov 14, 2010 - 0 comments

Well, the holiday season, as it usually does, bit me in the backside with major sugar overload. From my partner's birthday on October 22, I found myself having a really hard time trying to back off from some old favorite sugar foods, which over time snowballed into a major setback as old habits came to visit me once again with their usual baggage of extra weight. I put on EIGHT pounds in NINE days, just from eating REGULAR sugar at some point every day. That should be fracking impossible, but it taught me the lesson that I've been trying to learn all along: Sugar acts in the body like pure starch, and it gets converted to fat at an astronomical rate for me, and more so now than ever before in my lifetime. To make a gambling reference, the table's the same, but the game has changed!

Life has been uprooted in other ways as well, which probably didn't help my better judgement in the dietary department. Our dear friend who had a major stroke at our home in July was released from the nursing home FINALLY on October 23, and now he is staying with my partner and I as he continues to recover. Both men in the house are disabled and in wheelchairs and require a fair amount of assistance in daily living, a job which falls entirely in my jurisdiction as I've been caregiving full time since 2002 and certainly have enough experience and savvy to keep both patients well maintained and safe. So far, so good. I'm certainly beaten up in my energy capacity and sleep is harder to get than ever before, but with two happy and healthy patients in the house, I get through it knowing that they are both thriving because of the efforts I put in on their behalf.

Slogging Away

Sep 28, 2010 - 0 comments
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I have been visiting our dear friend Richard every day for the last 72 days since he had a major stroke in our home July 19, 2010. A month in the hospital passed, and then he was transferred to a nursing home to continue his rehabilitation the month after that. He is improving remarkably well, and the nurses are stunned to see how quickly he is progressing!

We really needed Richard to move in with us to both ensure his physical safety in a one-level home and to be able to give us a boost financially to help make the bills easier to clear and to provide me with the work that I would have taking care of him through my employer. The nursing home is being very vague about any discussions regarding his release, and seem more interested in shuttling him from home to home than simply discharging him and allowing him to continue his rehab on an outpatient basis. Grrr.

My continuing problems with upper abdominal pain after eating for a while had forced me to live off of sugar-free ice cream for two out of three meals every day because it didn't stretch the stomach enough to cause it pain. The downside of an ice cream diet is obvious, however....it's really fatty, even in moderation, and weight loss kind of gets sidelined. I had also become partial to using evaporated milk as a coffee creamer, which does really well, but unfortunately that is also a really fatty habit to get into, as I've found.

Fortunately, it only takes a couple adjustments to get back on the straight and narrow as far as eating goes, and I am actually able to eat more as a result, now that I don't have to make caloric allowances for the fatty stuff. Yay.

The Important Things in Life...

Aug 04, 2010 - 0 comments
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On July 19, 2010, 10:15 pm, our best friend Richard suffered a major stroke at our home while waiting for some fresh brownies I had made for him to cool off. Since then, I've been looking after him in the hospital every day, and am seriously contemplating having him move into our spare room once he's discharged from the hospital on August 17, since because of my partner Bob the bathroom and shower at our place is already handicap accessible.

True, we may still lose the house because of the bankruptcy, but even if we do, we can still make space for him wherever we end up. My qualifications as a Personal Care Attendant and 8 years of caregiving experience have already helped him quite a lot, and Richard realizes that his safety and recovery are almost assured under my care, which is a bonus since we're already friends :)

My weight has been dropping quite a bit on its own, incidental to the long hospital visits where I just sit in a chair for most of the time. It's difficult to eat regular meals, though, and by day's end we end up eating supper at midnight or later if we eat it at all. My problem with suspected gall stones has made it tough to eat anything that fills or stretches the stomach too fast, because then I'm stuck with a sickening pain in my abdomen every time I stand up for the next few hours afterward. I'm sure all that plays into it.

Oh well. I'm on a mission to look after our friend for now. It's more important than the next smaller size in clothing :)

In the Groove of Size 16-18W

Jul 09, 2010 - 0 comments
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I got to shift over some more of my long lost sizes into the main closet today which, though slightly snug, will probably fit within a week or two.

I'll be looking forward to breaking 200 lbs. this month--a feat which I accomplished only briefly in May 2007 while my partner was in the hospital. Of course at that time I was hardly eating at all and was subsisting on massive jugs of latte to keep going. Needless to add, that tactic did NOT last.

I've discovered only recently that for some odd reason my pancreas seems to be in distress (which has been manifesting as a burning pain in the upper abdomen for the last 40-some-odd days) even though I don't drink liquor. Could be a gallstone of some sort. Fun. I can't afford the ultrasound, let alone surgery. *sigh* It's always gotta be SOMEthing.