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The Important Things in Life...

Aug 04, 2010 - 0 comments
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On July 19, 2010, 10:15 pm, our best friend Richard suffered a major stroke at our home while waiting for some fresh brownies I had made for him to cool off. Since then, I've been looking after him in the hospital every day, and am seriously contemplating having him move into our spare room once he's discharged from the hospital on August 17, since because of my partner Bob the bathroom and shower at our place is already handicap accessible.

True, we may still lose the house because of the bankruptcy, but even if we do, we can still make space for him wherever we end up. My qualifications as a Personal Care Attendant and 8 years of caregiving experience have already helped him quite a lot, and Richard realizes that his safety and recovery are almost assured under my care, which is a bonus since we're already friends :)

My weight has been dropping quite a bit on its own, incidental to the long hospital visits where I just sit in a chair for most of the time. It's difficult to eat regular meals, though, and by day's end we end up eating supper at midnight or later if we eat it at all. My problem with suspected gall stones has made it tough to eat anything that fills or stretches the stomach too fast, because then I'm stuck with a sickening pain in my abdomen every time I stand up for the next few hours afterward. I'm sure all that plays into it.

Oh well. I'm on a mission to look after our friend for now. It's more important than the next smaller size in clothing :)

In the Groove of Size 16-18W

Jul 09, 2010 - 0 comments
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I got to shift over some more of my long lost sizes into the main closet today which, though slightly snug, will probably fit within a week or two.

I'll be looking forward to breaking 200 lbs. this month--a feat which I accomplished only briefly in May 2007 while my partner was in the hospital. Of course at that time I was hardly eating at all and was subsisting on massive jugs of latte to keep going. Needless to add, that tactic did NOT last.

I've discovered only recently that for some odd reason my pancreas seems to be in distress (which has been manifesting as a burning pain in the upper abdomen for the last 40-some-odd days) even though I don't drink liquor. Could be a gallstone of some sort. Fun. I can't afford the ultrasound, let alone surgery. *sigh* It's always gotta be SOMEthing.

3X (22-24W) Has Left the Building!

Jun 26, 2010 - 0 comments
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Today was the day that I had to knuckle down and sort through my closet to weed out all of the items that are by now just too big and baggy to wear at any occasion. Two HUGE bags of clothing later, my closet is much more grab-and-go friendly in the 14-16W and 18-20W range, depending on the brand.

I'm teetering on the edge of the next lower size, but it's probably going to be another month or two before those items can officially be added. It is very surreal to be wearing shirts again that haven't seen the light of day for the past 2-3 YEARS. It is also an odd, sentimental feeling to watch current favorites become too large, baggy, or worn out to really wear out in public anymore. Ah, the memories...

Unfortunately, in the midst of all this happiness I seem to have acquired a severe reaction to any sort of GRAIN, which manifests as a feeling like a chemical burn inside my entire upper abdomen and chest. Not cool. I discovered this only AFTER the doctor had taken five vials of blood from me to test for other things. Well, now we get to add another test to the list. This problem started suddenly 3 days before the end of May and has stayed with me ever since.

I did finish training to become a Personal Care Attendant for the patient I live with, earning a 91% score on the 15 page test. Not too bad :) Now he has to finish applying for Medicaid to tie the whole thing together.

High Stress Diet is Fattening

Jun 22, 2010 - 0 comments
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Fitness expert Covert Bailey once said something profound that has always stuck with me. Among the many factors that inhibit fitness and/or weight loss is:
1) Being older
2) Being sickly
3) Being tired or just worn out
4) Living under HEAVY DUTY STRESS

Bell number four has been ringing off the hook for me this month, as the house is in foreclosure and my partner and I are always either on the phone, filling out and faxing paperwork, or going to face-to-face appointments with the powers that be to try and buy us the time we need to find a new place. In the midst of all that, I've been trying to finish my training for a job as a Personal Care Attendant, but because of all the other racket going on and taking precedence I've had to cancel and reschedule the classes almost as soon as they come up, which is nerve-wracking as it certainly affects people's perceptions of my reliability even though it's unavoidable.

As if that weren't enough, I've developed a strange burning, swelling sensation in the upper left abdomen (in the area of the pancreas and spleen) which has been coming back every day for the last 25 days. My doctor is having a fit because I'm still not insured (because I'm not employed yet) and the symptoms are calling for some heavy duty testing that would break anyone's bank...and certainly finish us off and then some. Five vials of blood were taken (as the least expensive option at $277) but I'll have to wait until next week to see if they reveal anything.

Needless to say, the weight loss journey has been incidental to everything else going on at the moment :P