i still love the actual ritual of taking pills, weather is a vitamin to my regular bi polar meds, but theres always some kind of little hope that i just might get a buzz from them, and i never do...its just i the back of my head lately.
i could have gotton some pills on sunday, it was all i could do not to ask for them. i take my xanax and my klonopin as directed for the most part, but some days i need an extra and then im shorted and i suffer for it. and its not like i even get a buzz of either one of thoes either!
i dont get it how some people are getting a buzz of xanax, maybe because i actually need the stuff i have a different reaction to it? idk...but it keeps the panic attacks away which has been HUGE for me lately with my stress level.
i wish i could just have that buzz one more time right now so i could forget about all the bs im dealing with, but then you know right back where ill be so i ll let the feeling pass and go so something else, maybe take a vitamin and that might help. but if o inly had some lortabs today...if only....im still and addict...
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