I get stressed when she is not herself. I worry and I get frustrated. She doesn't know what's wrong or how I can help her. Coffee, water, drugs. She has an ocular migraine. Russ actually wanted her to cook him dinner. I have now over stayed my welcome here at the Den. Damit. I love it here. They don't even like each other any more. Something is going to need to happen for them to bond as a unit again. I am thinking I need to be the one to do it Again. I wish they knew how to communicate instead of giving eachother the silent treatment. It is so juvinile. I am glad I have te comedic relief of Corey.

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Mom broke her neck 3 years ago this evening as russ told her a joke while she was taking the laundry out to the garage. She tripped and fell head first into the car. two centimeters over and she would have instantly never been able to hug me again. In the past three years I have learned how to be strong despite the challenges, to find humor in the horror and to hold close to me those that can be  only a fall away. Yes my anxiety in life has risen to a whole new level, and stayed there. And of course the love for my mother increased to what my counselors deem Unhealthy :) I wear a friendship ring from her on my wedding finger. I am grateful everyday when I hear her voice or see her smile. Sadly life's stress weighs on all of us heavy like wet laundry. I only wish on Valentines Day the day before the anniversary of her accident my stepdad did not berate her for being the best mom she onlyy knows how to be, giving. When one of her little birds in struggling, she helps them out. I never knew my step dad valued the green-back dollar over the love of my mother and the saftey of his step child. I have finally lost respect for my stepdad after all these years of his mood swings and life being all about him, just because he is "disabled" having the use of only his Large Intestine.
I wish all men would die.

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I took my sister to DSHS this morning because we both had appointments. We were there from 10:00-2:00. She was snarkey crankey, judgemental, and looked way too sassy to need. She kept talking about people not deserving stigma and there she goes dolling it out to every person that smelled like a hard life. I was so embarassed.
I did get my medical reinstated. I came home and took a 4 hour nap.

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