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May 23, 2011 - 0 comments

It's like a rollercoaster. Had to run to the bank because there was a problem with my account. So I was stressed out and worried over that. So I guess I must have made an error after all. So now I am broke til next month. So I am in a bad mood because of that. But then one of my friends called me and asked if I wanted to hang out at her house. So I decided to go over there. Thought it might be nice to get my mind off the money problems. So I was over there for a bit. Then she wanted to go purchase something. So I went too. She got her item and then we headed back to her place. I stayed there for awhile. So it did chear me up. I'm still mad and upset over the bank stuff and that I made a mistake. But I'm doing better because I got to spend time with a friend. So now I am home for the night. I'll probably read some posts here for a bit then maybe watch a little tv or something. So that's my day.

woot woot so excited

Apr 12, 2011 - 0 comments
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excited

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birthday

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Hope



This might be short because I probably wont be on long but I am in a great mood and I hope I get to go out for my birthday. Yay if so. I guess I will find out later. So just wanted to write a quick woot woot cause I am 23 now. Who knows maybe Ill even get a party. That would be so neat too. So I will be back to write agian soon.

Mood Tracker

My Update and how I am feeling

Mar 30, 2011 - 0 comments

Hey it's been awhile agian. So let me see. So far family is ok. So no problems there with them at this time. Allthough last month my uncle was sick and was in the hospital. He is ok now. So I was busy with that. I know I had some anxiety when all that was going on but my friends helped me to feel better. So that is the last major lousy thing that happened. Right now everything is ok in that department. Then about two weeks ago I was feelinmg sick of course it triggured my anxiety. Seems like lately it has been much worse then it usualy is. Oh and also I have been having anger issues lately. I dont really know what's trigguring it. I guess it is my bipolar or anxiety acting up because I have no reason to be in a groucht mood. I mean things ain't great but it could be worse. So I should be ok but I am not. I think I made one of my friends mad when I got in one of my moods. So now I feel crummy for that as well. As for today I pretty much been on the computer all day. I might go out later somewhere but I am not sure. I'm sorta moody now so I'm a bit afraid I might say something wrong agian. I'm not like really mad just some but it might turn into another anger fit and I don't want that to happen at all. Last thing I need is to make another person mad at me. I told my mom how I have been feeling. She just brushed it off pretty much. So I don't know why I even try to talk to anyone about all this. It feels pointless at times. I don't know it's like sometimes she will listen and be supportive but othertimes she doesn't want to listen. Of course the problem is I never know which way she will act. So I wish I could talk to her only when she is supportive to save the bad parts of it from going on but I have no way of knowing how she will react because when she is not like this she can be really good to talk to. The times she is I end up feeling frustrated and upset cause no one seems to care. So I guess overall I am ok because I am kind of mad and annoyed but at the same time I am actually not to bad. I thought I would react a lot worse and it could get worse later today which is why I dont think I should go out. Still if I stay home I need to find something to do to get me busy. So I don't think about things. Plus I am worried my friend don't want to talk to me anymore but I know she more and likely will because she knows how I get sometimes. So this is what has been going on lately. I would say I will write soon but I never know when my life will become super busy agian. So I will try to be on here once in awhile if things pick up agian because I do like coming here but sometimes things are going on and I don't have time. So I will write agian sometime. For now Take Care,

What is going on lately

Dec 03, 2010 - 0 comments
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Depression

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stress

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friends

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worried

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sick



Hey Im back now. I have been dealing with a lot of stress. Theres been some issues with some of my friends and I have just not been feeling all that good. I havent really been doing much lately and maybe thats the problem is my lack of motivation. I dont know but my parents dont really seem very understanding about how I feel. Also I am normally a very social type of girl but I havent felt like being out and when I got places I tend to get bummed out. I think my depression is worse now. So this is my update. I dont know when Ill be here. I will try to be here on this site soon but I know its been awhile. Also I am hoping no issues happen this year. I know last year I was worried about family problems happening on Christmas. So I am a bit worried about that agian but not as much as I was last year. Right now this other stuff is on my mind. Plus I was sick a lot last month with a cold and then a flu. So maybe thats part of why I have been down because of the weather changing and all that. Of course then theres issues with my friends and that I feel like lounging around the house instead of going out and stuff like I did. So I hope that I feel better soon. So this is what is going on right now. I was going to put this in my mood tracker but its more an update than anything else. So I just made this an entery in my journal. I was going to post some stuff but I didnt get around to it. I have to get ready soon because I have to go somewhere soon. So maybe I will post later today or in a few days or something when I dont have to go but I was trying to think of something to do and I thought about this site. So I came on here agian. Also I read some forums. So this is my update.