I have a history of being awful at sticking with things. Especially my meds, and obviously my mood trackers.
I love how the tracker shows my "average mood" as "okay" lately, which is technically in the middle of all my current moods, but still so far from the truth! It's been up, down, mixed, up, down, blah, etc.
Recently, I'm attempting a new start at everything. STAYING ON MY MEDS is the number one priority (except for the Ambien, which is a hell of a withdrawal). Trying to work on relaxation methods for my severe insomnia, which was driving me to hallucinations, and is finally getting better. Trying to keep checklists and notes about everything. Feebly trying to exercise regularly.
So my current (no health insurance now, thank you generics and assistance programs) psych med status is: Lamictal 50mg (working up to 200), Wellbutrin XL 150mg (after a bunch of SSRIs failed on me), Klonopin .5mg bid (have overdone this, will not anymore), and slowly coming off the Ambien after 4 months of using and abusing it.
Recently, I forgot I took my Klonopin (still not used to routine and my brain is all whacked out), and I drank enough rum to get me pretty drunk. I was feeling great until a huge dizzy, tired spell came over me and I passed out for about 30 minutes. I woke up feeling strangely good, and still a little drunk. Of course, I knew mixing alcohol and any meds is a bad idea, but only after doing that did I research and find out just how dangerous mixing alcohol and benzos is.
...I feel invincible and very stupid at the same time. Won't mix those two again.