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Worried about BFP

Apr 29, 2013 - 0 comments
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I've had light bleeding since before I O'ed. But yesterday I decided to check my cervix and it felt very open and soft. Today when checking, it felt much more closed than yesterday but still open and also firmer. There was also some bleeding when checking my cervix.  Ugh! I wish I knew what was going on.  My doctors appointment is tomorrow and I really don't want bad news.

A New Chapter in our lives...

May 08, 2012 - 2 comments
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  I've been a member for about 2 years now. But I've fallen off. Slowly but surely I began to feel defeated. I've been TTC for almost 4 years now. It has been devastating to say the least. When I became a member I was charting my BBT and marking ovulation. After so long without ever having a positive on a pregnancy test I gave up charting.

  To add to the stress everyone I come in contact with feels the need to ask when I'm having kids, no matter how many times they have asked this question before. I even have strangers asking me "What are you waiting for, When are you going to have a baby".  Its incredibly rude. I wish people would think before they talk. I always handle it with a smile on my face but inside it really hurts.

  Well I'm finally in a position to be more proactive.  My husband started a new job and with it we have expensive but helpful insurance. They will cover basic fertility treatment and some advance. We have an appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist tomorrow. And guess what, that's also my 30th birthday. Maybe it will be good luck, lol.  30 is a big number for me. I always thought I would have 2 kids by now. Those dreams may be crushed but I'm happy that at least were taking this step to get some answers. I can't wait for tomorrow!