I dont know what the heck I was thinking when i agreed to do another round of Lupron.  I must have been crazy to think that it would make a difference.  I am getting so angry and agitated because it gives me insomnia so i am not getting enough sleep and I am moody.  This just isnt fair. I am so sick of this disease.  

Well I told myself that I am going to try to grin and bare the pain and come off the pill. I am sick of the way it makes me feel. I am not sure if this is what I should be doing but I am bloated all the time and I am still feeling pain. When i do get my period after three months its bad but not like it used to be so that is why I am afraid I havent had a back to back period in over 2 yrs. :(  I guess I will see what happens next month and see how i feel through out the month with my hormones because it really helps me to balance them.

Today is a bad day for me.  I am hurting all over.  I am so angry right now too.  Its been 7 months since my surgery and its back again along with its pals Fibro and Chronic fatigue.  I am regreting doing the surgery to begin with in some ways, because i feel worse than i did before the surgery. I wasnt feeling the FMS or CFS for atleast a year and now its back... ARGH!!! i want to cry its so stupid really.  Well that is my daily vent...