I think I might have really hit a huge bump with the Zoloft. I used to be on Zoloft as a kid for a long time, and 100mg was just right for me then, but they're too much now. I stopped taking the 100mg because it was making me sweat too much. Looks like my adult dosage is right at being 50mg. I also seem less dizzy on less of it. But the dizziness is also coming from what I think is a severe Xanax withdrawal, which is something I DID NOT see myself quitting doing, EVER. I can't believe I have made it this far. Xanax withdrawals are scary, I will tell you that much. When you're off of it, you might hallucinate like I did. Here's an example of one of my hallucinations: I thought I saw the clouds melting 5 or so days ago.
I was becoming a real mess on the Xanax. I probably needed to increase my dose, but I refused. Then I started reading up on things and I discovered I was becoming addicted to Xanax. Not enough of the medication was doing it for me anymore, and life was always depressing.
Now it's actually to a point where it is good again. It's also nice that finally, after nearly 8 months of being put on more than 5 anti-depressants, I think I might have finally found one that works. But I don't want to be on this pill for too long, I'm thinking 1 or 2 months only. I need to set an end date to this. But I don't want to withdraw either or enjoy life less
I would figure the pills aren't meant for long-term use and that the beneficial effects would stick around, but I could be wrong about that too. I have been taking Zoloft for just a little over 2 and a half weeks now.
Work is going good, I'm glad to have my job back and some satisfaction in enjoying what I am good at doing. But I really would rather design meaningless **** all day, so I'm wondering if it's time I went to school for graphic arts so I can a graphic designer.
Could college really come this year??? WATCH OUT WORLD!!! hahaha xD