Sep 15, 2014
This is what I plan to post on my gofund page soon.
I want to start by saying thank you to everyone who helped with the fundraiser. Unfortunately we have still been unable to conceive. Between May and now I have been to countless doctors appointments, had lots of blood work done and have taken lots of meds. I did ovulate 3 times with the new medication I talked about, but it never resulted in good news. For now we have decided to call it quits. 5 years is a long time. Without all of you I would not have been able to keep going. Thank you again for all the help every single one of you provided!
I'm breaking up with you. I hate your sticking guts. You make me vomit. You are the scum between my toes. For 5 long years I've allowed you to treat me badly and I've had enough. Today I'm finally strong enough to say to you, enough is enough and IT'S OVER.
You've broken my body, heart, my emotions, my bank account and sometimes my hope and my courage. You have been the most destructive relationship I have ever been in and we're THROUGH.
For far to long I let you define who I was. I've allowed you to let me think I was broken, not good enough, and that I had done something wrong. I have grieved, been jealous, numb, angry, stressed, depressed, blamed myself and wasted time worrying over you.
I should never have stuck around so long. I should have made this decision when you took that little life from me. I feel so good now that I am free of you!