The last several months have been hard for myself and family. Thanks to god  we are making it through each day a little easier. I have been getting better health wise also. The Narcolepsy has taken me for a long and winding ride. My doctors believe had my Narcolepsy not appeared they would not have found the hurthle cells on my thyroid. Another blessing from god for sure.

     My thyroid levels are now perfect for me. My TSH is .90 and I have been feeling better. My Endo was wonderful on my last visit. He is a caring doc and since learning of my Narcolepsy he is a little more understanding of my symptoms and the need to keep my thyroid levels as close to 1 as possible to avoid a combo of symptoms.

     I see a psychiatrist to treat my Narcolepsy. She is wonderful - she also specializes in Neuro disorders so I am in heaven having found her. I am currently on a regime of ritalin and cymbalta for the N ( of course this has caused a bit of depression too) and have regained some of my energy. I have come to the realization I will have good days and bad and must accept limits. This road has been a long one but faith, family, and friends have seen me through the worst of it and the best of it, without these I would not have made it through.

    God Bless~
    

My husbands sister passed away last nite. She was only 44 years old. We're not sure what happened other than to say when we got the news of her being in the hospital she was already on life support. This is the third death in our small family in lesst than 2 months.

I pray for strength for my husband. His mother passed away 2 months ago and now his sister. I am also praying for strength for our neice- she is just 23 years old and now is on her own.

What else can be said except- God will get us through.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwnnn..  tooo tired for words today. I'd rather be sleeping.

The morning began fantastic- I awoke easily @ 5:45 and was full of energy. I began my usual routine of getting ready for work. I left the house @ 7:45a.m.- what a beautiful morning it was- i take a scenic route that just gives me peace before beginning the work day. I had a mind full of thoughts and ideas for another set of poems. I had such great clarity. It was as if in that moment I had a rebirth of all my senses.

It was short lived. By 8:30 this morning I lost all clarity and I am a mess now. I am dyslexic again- taking notes for every tiny thing- it's so crushing to my self esteem.I am so devestated at this moment. I am so desparate to regain my senses again.

I just don't understand wwether this is all thyroid related or not and how long does one wait for that answer. I will be seeing my primary doctors associate thursday afternoon and will discuss everything with her. There must be something more. I can't wait around any more while my life passes me by.

On a lighter note- I have decided to turn my home phone & answering machine to low so that i cannot hear them - if it's an emergency my cell phone will ring- in the mean time it has reduced alot of my stress!!!  Finding a peaceful moment every night is so important to me right now.

Peace to all.