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Just another day

Nov 08, 2010 - 0 comments
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cutting

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Suicidal

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Headache

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tierd

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no patience

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pills

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overdose



Well it is another monday and the hubby is pulling a 10 hour day, which don't get me wrong is better than his 12-13 hour days, but still I am just tired of being alone and feeling like a single parent. I shouldn't even be complaining though because he would rather be with us, it's just not possible to scrap by if he doesn't work these hours.

The kids are loud and hyper and I don't have the energy or patience to deal with it. Our middle is still not sleeping hardly at all and it is getting old.

I have been looking at all the bottles of pills that we have tried to use to get the headaches under control, which none have worked yet, and I can't help but think that surely taking all of them would be enough to check out forever. But then who would watch the kids and clean the house and cook dinner, so I just grab something sharp and cut up my wrist some more and pray my hubby doesnt notice because I don't have the energy for that fight!

Trying to make it one more day! Thats as far as I can look for now!

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MS Monday

Nov 08, 2010 - 0 comments
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MRI

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brain tumor

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neurologist

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neurosurgeon

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open biopsy



Waiting on answers! I hate having to spend so much time wondering is this really MS and is that the road my life is going to go down. I have read a lot about MS and have even begun to cope with some of the difficult realities. BUT then as soon as I start to feel a bit at ease the whole world gets flipped around again!!!

I had a MRI done about 2 weeks ago and there were no new spots on my brain or spinal cord, just the same one as has been there almost a year. However, the spot changed. And the neurosurgeon we saw at the beginning of this journey, the first time be thought it was a brain tumor, now wants to review the scans and decide if we may be back to that idea again. If we are then that means we in store for an open biopsy in the near future! Oh JOY! NOT! UGH! Could someone just give us a real answer sometime soon!

Very annoyed with all the waiting and uncertainties!

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