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Anxiety (G.A.D.) is so hard to live with....

Nov 11, 2015 - 0 comments
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In August 2012, I couldn't catch my breath for 3 straight days.  I was so tired from not getting the oxygen I needed.  I assumed it was asthma and finally went to my doctor.  He said I did have a bit of asthma from allergies but mostly anxiety.  The allergies/asthma and not being able to catch my breath was causing my anxiety to get out of control.  I felt like I was going to die.  I've had Major Depressive Disorder since about the age of 15 and sure I've had anxiety longer than when I was diagnosed, I just kept brushing it off and didn't want it to be yet another daily issue I had to deal with.  I am now 32 years old.
It is so hard when you feel like you're suffering alone and nobody believes you.  Anxiety is so hard to deal with mentally especially because you worry about how others perceive your actions.  I know that after I finally started taking immediate relief anxiety medicine, I noticed a tremendous difference.  I wasn't getting "high" or anything like that but my chest felt lighter, I could actually breathe again, and I didn't care as much about how others perceived me (though it's still an issue I deal with daily).  I get anxious just going to the drive thru pharmacy to pick up my anxiety meds because I feel they all look at me like I'm an addict or an abuser.  Anxiety, no matter the type of Anxiety you have is a horrible thing to deal with.  It's not like a broken leg where people can physically see it.  I feel and know that some people just don't believe me when I have bad anxiety and/or panic attacks or just cry and cry for no reason. I usually don't have a reason for my crying spells honestly.  Guess that's how MDD and GAD work hand in hand.