Feb 01, 2012
Now I find that even doing the most menial tasks around our home, I find it very difficult. When I finish eother ,mowing the lawn , sweeping and or mopping the floor walking the dog,gives me great pain,so I am now finding that on some days , my oxycontin 80 mg~s, I am ta.king up to 6-7 om some days.....add to this, 5 valiums 5 endones and 150mg~s anti-deppresents, this damn mix is causing horrble side-efffects ! I am at my witts end , I feel so useless, so lonely.My mind wants to do a lot of things, but alas, my body just simply cannot do what it used to do.
I am only 55 years old and should still be able to do a lot of things, but as much as I force myself to do ,I cannot do.anything without after finishing or even doing them, I pay by suffering from chronic pain.Top it off ,I have been diagnosed with severe chronic depession.No,some people might think that my pride might be getting in the way.,But, I like to be able to pull my weight inthe house.And even if/when IO get approved for my neck disc replacement operation, there will be complications and possible major ones at that.I have Watched the operatio , on u-tube probably 20-30 times.So for me to make the desicion to have this operation was no small thing. With the depression, no one really understands it,what goes through ones mind.It`s NOT easy,At the end of the day, the only person whom can help you is YOU!!!!!! Sadly, the company that I worked for ,where IO had my accident, even after 4, yes, four years since it happened, the two directors ( who were supposed to be friends as well ) did NOT call once, just one lousy time to see how I am going /feel or if there was anything they could have done to help me, NO ,not a peep.This, in itself has contributed to my depression.