ive just been on this endless rubber sole kick. i dont even like the Beatles that much. well, i guess i do ... but ... ya.
i said rubber SOLE! sole!!!! not rubbers! gah!
ok so ... i am drop ded tired, its 824 pm here.
idk it is hard to explain to ppl and i know ive gone thru this with you guys too, why i miss the ac. like until i describe some of his very good quals ppl hate him. he is and esp was a very good person, very much a caretaker, till he turned on me, got a new chick, and started working hard as he could on his alcoholism
but i mean this lady today seeemed to be like the arguments i would have with you guys on here in the past ... JUST SAY FUKK HIM!
well. its not that easy. i was with him for 15 years.
but i am def more willing now than then to say that . . i try it EVERY Time
its not that I WANT him to come over.
well, i do.
i miss him. i miss sleeping with him (bof) ... and i hate sleeping alone
the lady today was like "go to meetings all day after you get out of here. you wont be alone."
GOD that is SO not the point.
anyway the main thing is i really dug today. i talked to Sheryl at the meeting (yes i went to a meeting from 6-730pm), a women's AA that i really like, and she was like 'You are trying to sabotage your recovery." im like im not!!! its the LAW!!!! you guys are all about the fukkin bleeding honesty!!!! and she was like 'you were honest. you called and asked them if you still had coverage. they said you did. keep going."
i argued with her for a while.
but im going to go.
i mean, the ac could narc on me (no pun intended) at any time. and i could lose the coverage at any time. but i will take it one day at a time cik and KEEP goin
i really like it there.
even tho they are biches
i mean, they are doing their job. and if they can help me help myself i can take it. i know im not a sissy, L, that was the whole point. but ty. :))))
fukk yeah! i could kick ALL those fukkers azzes! now if i could just stay clean ...
the meeting was good. Sheryl is another angel sent to my life. she is like in her 60s, she is real relaxed, kind of granola lady, sort of scrungy and jeans, she's like ... idk kind of older cool. hard to describe. she's kind of down to earth, bluish white collar, etc. she is very cool and i dig her a lot
Tambam has NOT called me. I am certain Andee told her about me. but i know! she has her own life and H, you just never know. the girl H
um. i am certainly not wearing a costume tomorrow.
MM invited me to Olvera Sati for the Day of the Ded festival so after the AA women's i said "im there dude"
love you medhelp