You're lost little girl
You're lost little girl
Tell me who
I think that you know what to do
Impossible? Yes, but it's true
I think that you know what to do, yeah
I'm sure that you know what to do
--mr mojo rising
I know I sort of dissed the doors, but I dint really mean it. I dig jim. but. im sick of the hits. that's all.
like them leather pants ya ... huh. kind of sexy in a weird feminine way ... idk
welp, here I am medhelp. I have to admit that I don't really know what to say, and I just ... im at a loss. and im supertire
today was aite. work was pretty good. Hedi, whom I love, is really boring to teach. She really doesn't want to be in school, but we have sort of run out of things to talk about. she still talks . she likes to talk. but if I try to teach something she is sort of disinterested. she will work for like a hour a day out of four. I never got the new student cuz the two guys never showed up to take the test.
something weird happened with Hoshiro. I mean in general he's really tripping. he is nervous I think about going back to Japan. he's been here for 2 1/2 years ... he went to another ESL skule for a year. Now he is going back to Japan to live .. with his folks. He is about 34. He has not become at all fluent. as ive sed we all think he has a learning disability. but he has a lot of nervous tics like he blows his nose compulsively when he feels uncomfortable. Louis said it is driving him crazy during morning session cuz he finds Hosh's nose blowing gross.
Louis came into my room after 1 and ax me if he can keep Hosh for 130 to 230 and then ill take him . then I would have Suni for the first hour and we'd trade just for today. yeah jft ha and um. I sed sure cuz I was really wanting to teach Suni he is so fun to be with. but then at 130 Hosh came to me. I said you are going with Louis. he looked so confuse. so Louis come in like "come on Hoshiro!' and H go ... No I am with Miss Meegy. yeah!!! Louis is like, I thought you were going to stay with me today for a extra hour. and H go 'no I want to be with Miss Meegy." Yeah!!!! he say that! I am like Dog what? I always thought H hated me and think im incompetent. See I have a lot of confidence in myself ... oh man. I know huh
and Louis is like 'But we are going to review the grammar I taught you this morning" and Hosh say "I want Miss Meegan to review it with me."
it was nice that he wanted me.
but I miss Suni.
But after I guess Louis is really fed up with Suni I know all students can be difficult but I like Suni ... anyway L go 'can we all play Scrabble again" like we did yesterday! so I am like ok. and I got to be on team with Suni. that kid is so bright! he pick up Scrabble in two day and he is a scheming strategist! he is playing with the words like ... can I put a 'y' on train to get triple word score? im like no there is no word 'trainy' but he keep trying all diffy combos of words tho he is just Beginning English he already trying to make words and inflections and gerunds. He won both days today he got 113 points and Louis got 45. !!!!
the hole time Suni playing the video 'talk dirty' on his mac and I just don't have the heart to tell him it got a lot of bad words in it. Suni is raise so good and polite he would turn 10 shades of red if he knew what the lyrics were and he is playing them for a fellow Japanese, Hoshiro, who is his senior, AND his teachers!!!!! oh well
when I comed home I talked to my girl, hello hani! and I work out, it sort of sock, it was the short one, 25 minutes, and its quasi hard but I just felt like I wasn't really doing it. im not sure if it is accurate when I feel that way. I mean, I was doing it. then I did my weights that always go well Meegy said knock you out
and ..... I wrote for a hour it socked too. sometime it feel like I will never write a good story again
kudos to me I made scramble eggs for dinner but I did have another tantrum while I was making it and I made whole wheat English muffin could not get it out of toaster and threw the knife across the room. I was like Lucy Liu ... ya ... whop! ka bam! hye ya!!!! I put hot sauce on it. it was ok but I had trouble with the whoel thing including eating cuz I felted angry and upset. but I did eat it then ok ... I felt better
but I still missed and miss my pop like a lot
Lit and Cope tried to get at me today but I dint. I am irritate with them. I am so sorry I ever told Cope where I live. He rang the box downstairs .. that was him the other day too not Lit. and its like ... I was at work!!!!! I text him like 'was that you' and he go 'yeah my bad. ' he explain why and I just wont tell you medhelp cuz you will all come over and kill me but I told him nicely like dog please
and Lit call me after he got off work but I was writing and did not have the ringer on so that's ok. I love him but sometimes he just irritates me. I cant really explain that either
and just in general lately I still feel real slow, and like tire, alls day. im not sleeping great, maybe four hour, but for me that's ok. and I just feel underwater. meegy on mute
I mean some days and some tiems of day are ok
im just fusstrated with myself. I keep fukking everything up. im good at that
and my stories sock. I know it. I know when I want to read them
Chula came into my classroom while I was out on a break at 1 and wrote on my board "had to leave fast, see you manana ... chula' this is a major breakthrough. she actually came in and wrote a goodbye! OH MY GOOD LORD I am so honored Chula. but, sarcasm aside, for her that's a big deal. so weel c
I have heard nothing from the lawyer or my hub about my email regarding the settlement, that I sent sunday
I will follow up
I am looking forward to Friday, which is tomorrow. yes, I know its thu. for me Friday. I want to go back to Placerita Canyon I am so hot for it I cant tell you. oh yeah! I was idly thinking of axing Chu but I know she works like five jobs and I really don't want to risk rejection so I dee kay
just had to mention it at least once
oh spit I saw Mr Dirty yesterday Arm Wrestling another guy in front of the U Haul. im NOT kidding. I almost stopped breathing right there. OMG oh my GOD! go Mr. Dirty! yeah baby!!!! today he was wearing red shiny basketball shorts that came to his ankles. I m not kidding about that either. SO fukkin HOT> he is SO HOT!!! I have to admit he excites me. that way. yes.!!!!! in case you dint know. did you know Mr. Dirty turns me on? oh you did??? oh. ok then ... just checkin
but I think 2Chainz, more so.
idk. not sure. maybe if I saw them arm wrestle ....
ok well I think my work here is done.
goodnite nite medhelp
I love you!