Jul 31, 2015
dear msd, jj, noni, spide, lesa, top jimmy, jada, bella, and breezy and EVERYONE on mh who supports me alls the time:
I LOVE YOU!!!!
ty for your incredible amazing and fannnnnnnnnnnnntabulous support!!!!
i love my AA laydeez but MH IS BETTER
i love tambam and nance but MH IS BETTER
i love my students but MH IS BETTER
i love my Group People but MH IS BETTER
i love my T's but MH IS BETTER
(cept boo on haters who bust pure hate and make ppl fight for their right to parrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr TEE!)
you wake up late for skule and you dont wanna GO
you ask your mom PLEEZ but she still sez NO
miss two classes and no homework ...
your mom threw away your best porno mag! (busted)
ok that had nothing to really do with how great you are MH but i thought id throw that in and r.ip. Adam Y we love you baby
welp, so know how i tolded you i got on the scale and it had gone down? wull ya i put on several pairs of pants and jeans that FIT! i could tell right away that they went right over my BOOM BOOM hips! a lot eeezier
thats what im talkin bout
so i will go back to my 45 cardio and 3x a week weights b/c i had not worked out 3 days in a rowski!
today we wented on a feld trap to tha DAM
its this watering hole for the barrio and it is super rank
but we had a good time. the kids were good and they loved going in the pool which is the weirdest pool you ever seen its like ... deep in tha middle and like wading at either side or something? i shore dont get it. but the keds all been there like 1000x and they love it
and its been built into a nice place but its still ghetto sorry not trying to be rood
alls i could remember was almost the ZACT spot i had been there with Lit years ago and i -- and we-- in the car ... ya
your a dirty girl Meegy
see. the day was coolish but i still got super hot and was like a total sweaty mess by the time we got back to skule . and of course those fukkers been making us stay til like 4 pm every day it is so evil ... it aint right
but tomorry the LAST DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this morning as i told you a lil about Trayvon came into my room and plopped himself down in a seat. well he didnt plop cuz he's this tall fine looking kid and he moves like nobody's bidness but still. at first mh belee you me i was REALS temp TED to chew him out for not coming to class the WHOLE SUMMER and then try to walk in the penutimetttt dayski and like STROLL onto the feld trap!
but it aint my decizzy if he go on the feld trap who me????? im just the teacher
and i was like telling myself "Dog, take it. Let him on in"
then i am like ok IMA GET Trayvon and i just pulled out ALL The stops. Rolando came in to visit and he was playing that old song bright liked and me go "give a dam like WHAT WHAT???" and i was singing along with it its by Prollem and like Tray just popped his eyes open at me like ????????? and Rolando is like 'are you kidding Tray Miss Meegan KNOWS rap!" and Tray was like sure right
and then they was talking about music and this girl in my class put on some dumb funky spit idk like little poppy girls and she go "can i make the music louder Miss Meegan?" an i sed "ya but please make it hip hop or rap" and i saw Tray raise his eyebrows but you know he wont look direk at me
then i ax him a couple question but he wont really talk to me but mumble and though im deaf i go close so i can hear him and he does answer me
i walk over to this huge stack of extra work i let the keds do for extra credit and Tray's empty journal and i said "If you want to pass the class and make up all the work Tray you can write in this entire journal and do all this work. you can turn it in anytime."
i was sort of kidding but i'd take it if he did it but he just mumble 'aite' and still dont look at me. he slouching his long legs in the chair and got his music in his ears but one out he can hear me
Rolando and I talk about rap, Tray just cut his eyes sideways at us
but on the bus i sit alone, Rolando sit acrost and one seat down and behind him Tray. and Tray keep on looking at me he loves showboating and being the center of attn i know this cuz i watched him that one time and he loves cars i know this cuz i listened to him on the yard and he start talkin about the car races in Compton every saturday or something and how many ppl go and how dope it is
but i just look, i can see Tray keep checking am i looking or listening and we make a little eye contact
Tray is so busy showing off to his friends that he dont eat the food and Miss Isolde is p'o'd she is a tough cookie and tell Tray he dont get to eat ... she wont open the box of chips for him and got no more chicken wraps
all the way on the bus back to skule Tray cutting sad eyes all over the place can i eat Miss Isolde and she is tough like 'NO NO NO! Tray i aint opening no food for you! you shoulda ate before!"
and i know Tray should have and she right bc i see hes a cut up but i still like him
earlier in my class Hayden had been talking "would you eat a human Miss Meegan for money?"
i said no money is not that important to me
and Tray go "WHA?" thats the first thing he said direk to me "Money is the most important thing in the world you cant have nothing without money!"
i said "what about love?"
he is like 'DOH! you living in a fairy tale!"
i said "well its just that if you're so young and you have already had a lot of hard experiences in life, Tray it makes you more cynical"
he aint say nothing
so laters we walking back onto the yard when we get off the bus after the trip and Isolde put the box of chips on the table that still has some left in it she say no one can have it its going back into the cupboard
but Tray and another boy i adore, the tall, stocky kid who said he missed having me as a teacher, come on our heels they just following the chips! right into the skule kitchen "Miss Isolde can we have the chips"
NO NO NO she say
and i grab two and while she turned around i put one in Tray hands and one in the other boy's
they go out the boy who i know a lot says ty
and then Tray go out but he turn aroun and come back in and "Thank you, Miss Meegan!"
CHA CHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! score one for finally getting to Trayvon!!!!!!!!!!!!! i see you in the Fall little fella
ya that was good. and Jessie sat by us and the Limbo kid talked my ear off the entire time
Jesse aint talk just sit there with his long blond hair in his little Nirvana shirt. i told him long time ago i love that shirt. its one with a pitcher of Krist Dave and Kurt you've seen it
then at Group ... well mh i had talked so much last week about Ryan you know they hate him sight unseen and thank he stupid
and then ... like ... ok so in group like ALLLS these guys gasped when i said i thought Ryan thought i was old, ugly and fat. one guy who was not there last week was like 'WHAT????"
they is our age mh
and then one of the same guy who tell me how me baring my soul and my honesty in Group has help him SO much (they is all marry tho cept one guy he's a 30s guy and idk about him he is nice tho) he say AGIN how much he like Meegy and he say "Meegy I see you as pretty, attractive, and Young!" (he's oller) and he say "and i'm pretty sure every man in here would say the same thing!"
OMG mh! i was so embarrass. and the guys all kind of like grunted their assent and i try not to really hear it you know or defer the satisfaction i got from it but it real felted good and it was like, i mean it sounded like they meanted it!!!!! it was pretty dope
and i love my laydeez in there too
i call Tambam on the way home from Group and go "im sorry i was mean im not mad at you and i feels better"
and she say "come over and i will make you a ice cream sundae"
and i do
but just had 2 bites of sunnay cuz i want to keep this body! bay bay
and we talk
and tambams two sons are there and even tho Tbam dont get along with the oller one who is hi function autistic (they bof is the two sons) he is super smart and a lot of fun and his gf there and we all talk and have a good old time and tbams younger son who is 20 whom i know well hug on me a lot bc he is SO sweet and he likes when i come over and he say "are you ok? come here, baby, give me some sugar" and he kiss me on top of my head!
and i saw Lola the dog
it was a good night
and i drove tbam to the store b/c she wasnt wearing any shoes and she wanted cigs and the guy who worked at the store was INCREDIBLY CUTE! but Tbam said he was closer to 25 than 30 which is too young and he was a tall slender Middle Eastern guy omg so handsome and i flirted with him like a lot
he was quite charming
we might or might not go to Yosemite we're going to decide by tomorrow at midnight
and i am still sad that my folks and family don't ker about me nun and the ac dont but Tambam said let's focus on the people who love you like me and oh everyone
i said ok
i love you mh
i am ded beet tar!
almost 9 mos