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Jan 10, 2012 - 0 comments

Hey ppl. So the guy here isn't as strong as he thinks sometimes. It's weird bc over the last months all the sex related things i've read/xperienced/been scared of [stds] have given me some info but not much sense. I have had some unprotected oral sex recently. Not proud of it. Stupid/d[ck move. U would think its ez to be smarter then ur d[ck. Well. Yeah i'm writing this so not so much. I have sworn off any sex now. I will get tested again in mab a few wks/again after that. Seems like as much as like sex i'm really wanting someone in my life more then just getting off w someone. Hmmm. Changes. Have had some irritatetion since on my d[ck/have no idea if its just from the rough nature of the oral i got or what. Short/lasted for a min or 2 tops. Everything i read.. Every guy i talk to.. It's said to me that oral is safe. Lo risk. Guys i talked to recently even say they do it all the time/no worries/no harm/no foul. I am a very ADD guy. Mind on overdrive most of the time. Not a good mind for casuel hookups. I don't have unprotected intercourse. Lol after the last months of all of this i have been to scared to even go there. I used to be a chronic jerker. That's changed to. I do it sometimes/its necessary and yeah lol i like to. I really have alwayz liked my d[ck. Never thoght bout any probs it mite get me nnto. That's the past. My d[ck's often my nemesis now. As seems to be sex in generel. Idk y i'm writing this. MaB someone will see it and relate. I've met some good ppl/goin thru some awful $hit/sex wise/relationships/personaly. Best to u all/i truly feel connected to u guys. Hope this year will give us a fresh look at r lives. In a good way. Peace/Good vibes////////. JAke

New Years Resolutions

Jan 01, 2012 - 1 comments
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HPV

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Dermatology

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New Years Resolution

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new year

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Herpes

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STDs



Well its been 8 months since my hell began that led me to this site. Looking at pix of guys dicks was never so awful as it was trying to figure out wtf was wrong w me. As it is after all these months i am std free according to 6 drs and 2 clinical tests for everything from hsv to hiv. I can say that in my life i have never been that afraid. I guess not knowing what i was afraid of was the biggest thing. I am truely greatful to everyone i have talked to here. Some amazing ppl here. I wont name but one name here and thats Grace// thank you so much for takeing time here and putting up w scared and confused ppl and r q's =] //althogh there's lots of others who have helped me and hopefully i have helped them somehow to. As it is i have tried to be careful in my choices but as we all know its always a risk//be careful out there. I wish u all the best and plan to stay around here and check in on what's up. My experience has truely changed my life and i'm not talking bout being reborn or nething but i def am alot wiser and more up on things thanks to ppl here and all the time i've spent looking into everything i can. Happy New Year//good vibes//peace.

WTF

Aug 17, 2011 - 0 comments
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Herpes



Yeah its a jakked up name for this journal thing but its the way i feel about all thats going on w/me right now. If you've read my posts u will see i'm not a guy who fu#ks around much and i've always been kinda proud of that. Making out w/someone naked or kissing yeah. Going further and having oral sex is not off the table but rare and fu#king well its something i do w/someone i care about and know more than five minutes..and not if i don't know the person ever. So yeah i messed up and jerked a guy at my gym while he jerked me in the shower.He was hard and started talking to me and well things got heated and boom there we were side by side playing w/each other's hardons. It was unplanned and hadn't done it before not since h.s.anyway. Seemed safe at least.. So how does someone licking my balls and jerking me [no oral on penis] get me to this point?? Especially since i tested for std's a week after and was neg?? Seen 4 dr.s and had all the blood tests?? Probs w/bumps, stinging, pains and general unwell feelings down in my my man land and beyond right to my hole?? Well ima find out, get tested again and post it all here so anyone else who goes thru this sh#t can get some kind of help of some kind from the hell i've been going thru to find out.. until then BE SAFE and remember there's always your hand..