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February 27 Update

Feb 27, 2012 - 0 comments
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Well,

Exercise plan is going great. I am still eating well and still feeling great about life and the changes I have made. I've been hanging out with friends more on the weekends... still able to see my Aunt and the baby... no complaints!

My ex got in touch with me yesterday to tell me that he's come to the realization that he was incredibly selfish during our relationship and he's sorry he treated me the way he did. He misses me... is miserable... and is striving to better himself so that he can "earn" me back (his word, not mine). He spoke about looking into therapy, said he's joining a CrossFit gym (jealous, don't have the moola for this), and signed up to take the next firefighters exam.

I am happy for him and I hope he does make these changes in his life... for him. I stressed this. I told him that he should not be doing these things for me... but for himself because otherwise it won't work. He said he understood that and he feels like he is on a better track.

I don't know how I feel about the prospect of getting back with him at this point... honestly, I don't know if he is legit... but I won't deny that it feels great to be validated... to have him realize that I was a great thing in his life and he f*ed up.

I will still be focusing on me and my life but I do hope that he keeps me updated so I know he is following through and isn't just all talk. Feels a little bad that I cannot be there to help him... BUT... he has to do it for him. I'm done holding his hand.

Will edit this update tomorrow with new weight. Fingers crossed I lost again.

EDIT: bummer... 152.5 this morning... I am crossing my fingers that it is muscle gained versus fat added.. However, I did actually do a cheat this weekend so it may be a consequence of not keeping my diet clean. We will see what the scale says next week... and I will use this as motivation (trytrytry) to work harder and go to exhaustion

February 21 Update

Feb 21, 2012 - 1 comments
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Weighed in today at 151.5 ~ That's a 4.5 loss in a little over a week.

It feels good.

On a non-exercise note... I ended my 4-year relationship on Saturday night, the 18th. I feel like my motivation to change my eating and exercise has spread to other portions of my life and made me realize that I had to change this unhappy part of my life. I still love him but he is not on the same journey as me. I want to change things in my life, to reach goals that I have... he is so sedentary and stuck where he is with no goals and no forward momentum.

Good riddance. I am both relieved and sad but trying hard not to let the fact that he simply accepted the breakup versus trying to keep me drop my confidence or dent my self-esteem.

I still went to the gym on Sunday (saturday was a rest day, so was Sunday but I went anyway) and went to the gym yesterday as well (had the day off of work, woop) and did the first day of my second week of Jaime Eason's LiveFit program. Proud of myself that I didn't let my down mood stop me from working out.

I also did my batch cooking for the week last night... lean chicken breasts, hard boiled eggs; and I bought sweet potatoes and veggies to snack on.

Update - February 14 2012

Feb 14, 2012 - 4 comments
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I've been away from MedHelp for a bit and slacking.

I went back up to 156 (ugh).

I joined the site bodybuilding.com and have started Jamie Eason's LiveFit program. It is a combination of training and nutrition (which is my biggest issue) and I will be focusing my energy on this.

Since my weigh in on February 7 I've dropped to 152.5. Pretty cool.

I am incorporating a cheat day too as I believe I have the binging problem where I am good about depriving myself junk.... and then I break and eat poorly and gain back the weight I've lost... and then I'm depressed about it and slack at the gym. AGHH!! It's a horrid cycle.

Was in the 140s when I started on here and now around 10lbs heavier. Still bummed about it but excited about the program and figuring out better nutrition.

January Workouts

Jan 04, 2012 - 0 comments
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Start Jan 2, 2012

Monday January 2, 2012:
Jumping Jacks, Knee highs, push ups, sit ups: 10mins
Bicep curls, tricep kickbacks, IYTAs: 5-8 lbs (2 sets with 5s 1 set with 8s) Reps of 12-15, 3 sets each
Elliptical: Level 10-12 35 mins
Sauna: 10mins

Tuesday January 3, 2012:
Jumping Jacks, Knee highs, push ups, sit ups: 10mins
forget the rest because for some reason it isn't showing in my tracker!!!!
Treadmill: Believe it was around 40 minutes.. ran 2miles at 2 incline then alternated between walking and running at 8 incline until I was at 3 miles

Wednesday January 4, 2012:
Rest day - Spending the night with my Aunt and baby cousin!!

Thursday January 5, 2012:
Spinning? Didn't do this as the class was at 6:30 and I go to the gym at 3:50.
Warm up of walking on treadmill, 5 incline, for 5 mins at 3.5 and running 5.5 for 5 mins; .80miles 100 calories
Weight training circuit (will fill this in later)
sit ups
Running on the treadmill for 1.24 miles and forget how many calories (total of 2.04miles on treadmil)
Sat in the sauna for 20mins after workout ~ very nice.

Friday January 6, 2012:

Saturday January 7, 2012:
8:30am Cardio Kick Boxing! Totally going to do this class as I'm up every weekend at like 7am anyway no matter how hard I try to sleep. Going to be difficult to eat something before the class though.

Did this class. was great! Warmed up for 10mins beforehand on the treadmill. Was sweating bullets during the class! Will be doing this EVERY saturday. Was such a boost.

Sunday January 8, 2012:
Nada. Definitely cheated on my healthy eating today as well with Five Guys cheeseburger and fries. :-( Oh well. Not going to get wicked down about it. Will strive to burn more calories this week!

Monday January 9, 2012:
Gym; no gym today.. had stomach issues :-(

Tuesday January 10, 2012:
GYM! not sure WHAT is wrong with my stomach... but same sensations.

Wednesday January 11, 2012:
Gym! 4pm-7pm

Weight training - bicep curls, tricep kickbacks, lat holds
sit ups

Treadmill: 35mins, 3 miles, 400 calories
Elliptical: 10 mins, 100 calories

30/30 Class: Muscle conditioning, 30 minutes; Pilates, 30 minutes... calories?

Thursday January 12, 2012: (Pregnancy test this am - negative!)
Gym
Small introductory training with NE1 Fitness

Friday January 13, 2012:

Saturday January 14, 2012:
Cardio Kick Boxing 8:30am - 9:30am

Sunday January 15, 2012:
Gym

January 17, 2012 -- Had a bad week. Blew off any and all exercise but I was feeling moody and decided to be with family.

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January 21, 2012
Cardio Kickboxing 8:30-9:30