I am a pain killer addict. I live for the next high. It has taken over my life and I don't want to do it anymore. Thanks to the pain killers I indirctly  lost a high paying career that I really didn't want anyway but it has had a huge financial impact on  my family. I'm happier in my job but I don't really do anything else but go to work and then go home and watch TV. I used to be very active and involved in my families life. The scary part is I love the pills but I hate the withdrawal. I've had numerous medical problems to get me the pills and for about three years I took care of my mom who died from cancer. I was the one who gave her the pills, one for her one for me and as they increased her dose I increased mine. She was in hospice so I had an unlimited quanity. My husband and kids are extremely active and very fit. I keep getting heavier and less happy. I just sort of go through the motions day to day. I so want to live again and most of all FEEL NORMAL AGAIN....