Feb 01, 2012
After seeing a new cardiologist, one who actually helped, I have been informed that I have a slight arrhythmia. The arrhythmia is definitely what's been causing my anxiety. When I can feel the irregular beats (a few times a day) I go into a panic.
Before I knew what it was, the panics would last for several minutes and would cause me to freak out and have a full blown panic attack. It was happening at least once a day. It caused loss of appetite and weight loss, dehydration, nausea, light headed-ness, dizziness, and in turn made my heart race faster and palpitations stronger. I felt like I was going to just pass out and never awake every single day.
After about 5 months of not knowing ANYTHING I finally get some answers. I'm also attending medical school right now so I do know that what I've been experiencing isn't normal, but it's not life threatening. Now that I know what is going on, when it happens I'm not frightened as much. I still get nervous and have a small panic, but nothing that disrupts my being. I worry still about what this could turn out to be in the future, but until then I am living my life to the fullest. I feel so much better now and I've regained my appetite, gained 3 pounds back, don't feel so weak or sick or sad anymore, and I'm able to enjoy the little things with my son that I should be enjoying.
On the other hand, this could be temporary. After seeing the doctor for about an hour she was able to diagnose the arrhythmia. I wore a heart monitor called a 'zio' for two weeks and sent it in on last Thursday. After it's evaluated and my doctor looks over it, I will get the final results. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for absolutely normal and nothing bad. But I did experience quite a few abnormal heart beats/rates while I was wearing it. So hopefully there will be an explanation. My blood pressure is usually borderline low, so I think that also has a lot to do with the way my heart beats.
Either way, I'm on the right track to getting my life back in order and being able to enjoy my family, friends, school, and work. I'm feeling a whole heck of a lot better and I'm so glad I had the energy, courage, and strength to get through this. I thank God every day that I'm blessed with such an amazing, loving family and people who care about me and remind me that it's going to be ok. I WILL overcome this until it is ALL GONE!
Staying Positive :)