The Lord told me I was a lean mean fighting machine that he had trained to defeat the enemy.  He trains us with his word and waiting on him.   To learn to be a good soldier is not easy.  No training is but the end result is just what he said a lean mean fighting machine.  

God's peace came to me today in the form of the truth and I believe I am now on the path he wants for me.  Thank you everybody for helping me.  But my friend Stella had it right I needed to go with my gut feeling and then the Lord showed me the truth and now I am on the right path.  It is the beginning but it is a start.  My friend Addie's prayers and my husband's prayers and everybody on here their prayers have brought me to this point.  I have a long way to go but believe my healing is continuing and going this direction that He is showing me.   Love Linda

I have been very compliant with everything the doctors have told me to do.  I know I have multiple things to deal with, first the hashimoto, then the celiac and now for the past 2 months anxiety, some panic and depression.  Things seem to being going ok and then 2 months ago my thyroid jumped up 3 points and the anxiety, depression and now some panic started.  My thyroid is back down to normal a couple of weeks ago but symptoms still persist.  I have been taking a natural antidepressant L-5HTP and it has been wonderful, no side effects, weight loss but it is no longer doing the job of helping the depression and hopelessness and not wanting to live to go through all of this stuff.  I have been pushing through and believing God and going for counselling and even have started a new hobby, making earrings which does help to put my mind of something else.   I feel I have no choice now but to go to my psychiatrist and have him give me an antidepressant which in one way I am looking forward to some relief but in another way am scared to death of taking it.  I hope somebody reads this and can encourage me in the things that are going on and the pattern that it is taking.  I am waiting for the results of my blood test taken on Monday to see if the thyroid has changed but everyday is a challenge to get through.  My mood swings are awful.  I try with everyting I have to stay stabile and hopeful but it catches me and I zoom down and want to die because of feeling so hopeless.  Then I manage to zoom up again and be ok for a while.  I am still taking the lorazapam and the natural antidepressant until I can see my doctor on Tuesday.  Please if anybody reads this and can help to put my mind at ease about taking a real antidepressant help me.    linda    I may post something on the forum. but you can answer here if you will.

James 1:3  Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.  But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfectly and fully developed with no defects, lacking in nothing.

God is always working in us even when we don't feel he is or maybe don't even want him to but he will continue doing his work until the day he comes for us.  Remember all his benefits and tell him to have his way in you.  Thank Him for everything as He is as written above doing a great work in us and he is deserving of all our praise.     linda