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Feb 25, 2012 - 0 comments

I havn't a thing to say today. I'm not insprational as everyone seems to think. No I'm simply a piece of dust floating around the atmosphere. I never seem to stop, yet I never try. I do not want to be in existance, I simply want to fall to the ground and not have to continue on. Day after day drags by. Always the same yet always different. Oh how I wish I could settle what I would give to be able to stay still. Be peaceful. Be in a trance. Come alive. Yet be quite th opposite.

Goodbye my "Love"

Feb 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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letter to you

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Blessed

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Depression

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problem

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feel

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Love

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self injury

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goodbye



Dear Depression,
I'm so glad I've had the oppertunity to meet you. I'm so thankful you stuck around for three years before anyone relised the was a problem and decided to fix it. Depression oh how I love the times we had together. I miss when we used to spend weeks at a time doing nothing but sleeping. Oh depression you had me meet a friend of yours, self injury, how that relationship grew and blossomed over night and how much I did rely on thee.Oh depression I will truley miss the way you shed no light on anything but yourself. The way you blocked out all the other emotions. I'm not complaining I did not try to stop you, we both knew I did not want to feel them. Oh depression there was a large price I paid for you though my close friend. There was no way to choose which emotions to block so I had to block them all. I'm learning to live without you, I am shocked to feel emotions that I haven't in so long. Although I am happily supprised., that is not the case with anxity or loneliness.
Depression I am not sorry that I must leave for I know it is best and I will try my hardest to never wander back. This is goodbye for good.
Sincerly,
Gianna

The Silent Killer

Feb 17, 2012 - 4 comments
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self injury

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self abuse

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self mutilation

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Suicide and suicidal behavior

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Awareness

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silent killer

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killers

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Pain

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child

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teen

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need others help



I've looked threw all of the forums, the communitys, and the ask the doctor pages. Specificly looking for one thing. I searched, yet I could not find it. 75% of Americans have gone threw it. Yet on a well known health site it is not even mentioned. It contributes to millions of deaths. Yet everyone chooses to ignore it. It is my sickness that I am struggling to control, and if it is not found, should I decide knowone cares? This condition is offten know as SELF INJURY, SELF ABUSE, or SELF MUTILATION! I am 14, yet this condition has taken almost 3 of those precious years from me. I am recovering, although at a slow pace, it is more then I could've dreamed of. Please help me raise awareness to this cause, because without it, innocent lives are taken hourly. So many of you decide that this does not concern you, because you have never been aware of anyone with this condition. Think of your children, granchildren, and all else that are to come. There is a 3/4 chance that they themselves will be effected by self injury and an even higher chance that someone they care about will have to go threw this pain. Please if anyone knows a way to bring awareness to the board of this site, please help me contact them.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                 Sincerly,
                                                                                                                                                                                                     Gianna Crisc <3.