Im beginig to think this will never end.
Everyday it's something new, a headache, numbing, dizzy, general panic. Always without fail something wrong with me.
I dont know how to cure this, but i do know if i dont do something and fast i am going to go insane. I can not deal with this anymore, it's getting too hard.
I sit home all day almost everyday, some days i dont move out of bed, this isnt what i want.
I'm a neat freak, yet i have not cleaned my house for 6 days... Not like me at all, i just dont have the energy i dont feel like doing anything except i want to do everything! go to work, clean my house, go out with friends, go out anywhere but no the last week i have not left the house :(
This is just getting worse and worse.
I am convinced i am dying, i honestly think something is wrong with my brain.

Please if anyone know's easy ways i can start to rid this horrible illness please inbox me.

There is so much i want to do yet i dont have the energy to do any of it. I know i shoudl excersise, go visit people, go for a quiet drive or something anything that involves me getting out of my house, but i cant bring myself to do it.
I dont want to do this, i dont want to live like this anymore.
I am 20 years old and here i am sitting in my dark bedroom at 4 30 pm where i have been the last 3 days. That is not normal, i want to cry, jump, scream, smash things and sometimes i feel like i want to rip my hair out because it;s not getting any easier/better. Every damn day is getting harder and worse and i feel like im loosing it.
I NEED MY LIFE BACK. PLEASE SOMEONE, ANYONE HELP ME. tell me what to do, tell me how to stop thinking i am dying.

I miss life, I miss enjoying things, going out and getting absolutely **** faced with my friends, going camping, working, being me. Why has this happened? Honestly will it ever go away? I dont want my life to be like this now, tomorrow, yesterday ever! i just want to be happy.

HOW?! :'( i am really loosing control....im fighting the tears constantly, everyday, trying not to break is so hard. im tired of it all.
I've been told to go on medication but people say it doesnt cure the anxiety that if i was to go on meds then come off the anxiety will still be there if that makes sense. I just want it gone completely forever. How do i do that?

Well it's definantly been a long time since i've been able to log in.
It's been a long hard few months. I have been back in my own home for about 2 and a half months. It hasn't been anywhere near as bad as i thought it would be, looking back i don't know why it was such a big deal. Things have been good, okay, not completely horrible. I have been seeing a phsycologist, who to be quiet honest i do not think is doing much for me, he just ask's me how the fortnight has been we don't actually talk about anything that i would consider "important". Uhm I am still having a hard time, i always feel like "crap" always have some form of what i believe is derealization, ugh i am completely over it i am doing my best but it feels like it is not enough :(

The panic attacks have become less and less which is really good, but now i always think i am going to die, it's truely a horrible feeling really it is so aweful :'(
I have my days where i just sit in bed and cry because i feel so helpless, scared, annoyed and i feel like i am wasting my life because to be honest as much as we all try not to let this run our lives alot of the time it is hard to control it and get on top of it. I wonder if anyone else feels exactly as i do now?! It's like i have a brain block stopping things from feeling real, it just makes me worry thinking something is really wrong with me, Does anyone else feel like this??

I always think there is something medically wrong with me and i believe it's something terminal. I have a stomach pain, a tingle in my mouth, a "lump" in my throat, just everything all the time i think something is wrong with me it's beyond a joke....i am scared of everything all the time. Right now i have a weird feeling in my mouth almost like i have hair in my mouth and my throat has been feeling "funny, like its blocked" for about 4 days now, it's so annoying i dont know how to get rid of it. Arh what the heck am i supposed to do because i really really honestly
i dont know what else i am supposed to do to completely overcome this. If i am completely honest, i have been doing really well, i go out (not to the pub or anything but shopping, to visit friends and family out for lunch), i try to keep my life as "normal" as possible by trying to do all the things i used to do and not keep myself couped up at home. It's hard some days i feel so down i want to give up, sometimes it all seems pointless!
My family and partner have all been amazing, beyond amazing, so understanding i really appreciate them so much!
They make everyday worth it.
I have changed so much the past few months, i am so different towards people my attitude has changed so much i 100% believe i am becoming a better person, there are still a few things i would like to change about myself, i have stopped being so judgemental but i still am a little and i would like to stop it all together. I want to be atleast 98% good person.

So i guess there isnt much more i can say i think that's basically everything. I hope i am better one day really soon, i want to get a good job so we can start planning to have a family but i need to be completely better before i bring a little angel into this world. So i really really really hope and pray i am better soon, i am trying so hard please let me have some good in my life.

Well I finally got rid of my headache, but now it seems im back where I started. I always feel funny in my head I cant describe it but it's really getting to me, I just want it to go away. I just want to give up, I hate that I can't ignore this and it go away, I dont want to deal with it anymore :'( I am being so strong, I haven't cried in so long but today I want to because I'm tired of being strong I want my life back, I hang out with friends and family and all I can think is how much I hate the fact I cannot completely enjoy myself like they can.
When will this end, everyone keeps saying give it time and when you learn to deal with it, it will go away. Well I am dealing with it, I go out, I am back home now, I am looking for work, I go shopping even when I feel anxious! I dont know what the **** I am supposed to do now, I'm doing everything I was told to do and I'm getting no where.
So how do I get rid of this? Will I ever get rid of it, will I be myself again? or is this my life now? I'm still holding back with alot of things because i dont know if I can handle it. Should i just be doing everything I did before the anxiety?? I DONT KNOW....
I'm trying so hard not to be scared of this, sometimes it's too hard to ignore the feelings. I have ignored the scared feelings though, accepted them. I know I'm feeling scared and anxous and that's okay, feelings cannot hurt me, they will pass and I will be fine :), it work's works but then the feelings come back. There is only so many times you can tell yourself the same speech :(
I just dont want to deal with this anymore... I am well and truly over it.!

Hate these feelings, why can't I just accept its anxiety?! Why do I have to be scared I have a brain tumor/anyurisim or a heart problem?! Im trying not to be scared but I have like a heart burn feeling and a bad feeling I just want to cry I'm scared Iam going to stop breathing.... I'm alone and don't know what to do :'(