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10/08/12 - positive hcg test????

Oct 08, 2012 - 3 comments









false positive

i haven't had a normal period history, and i've been off birth control for about 2-2.5 years, i've been feeling very emotional, irritable, i feel bloated, constipated, and i feel like i'm eating more than is usual. I took a pregnancy test, because lets face it, i'm paranoid. I took the test this morning, and it showed up with two lines, the first line a dark pink color and the second line was faded or lighter than the first line - it was one of those cheap $1.00 tests from dollar tree, could this mean i might really be pregnant????

I am going to treat this as a false positive and wait 3 days then take a two more tests using first response. if these turn out positive then i will see a doctor.

I've been taking vitex (chasteberry) for one week along with fish oil liquid gel and my womens one a day vitamin, could vitex cause a false positive?

Can anyone give me advise, or console me somehow, i feel anxious, nervous, scared, but the other part of me thinks this could be a good thing too. i don't know....

September 25, 2012

Sep 25, 2012 - 0 comments









latent period

so i've taken prozac, paroxetine, hydroxyzine, and trazadone over the past 7 years, i've also taken tramadol for 2.5 years due to severe pain before/during/after my period. The past 2 and a half years i've noticed that my pain is not as severe, however, my periods are still scanty and imbalanced, i at times miss a month. I presume this may be due the hormonal imbalance i was diagnosed with 3 years back or so  (progesterone/estrogen) considering that i had what appeared to be lactation from my nipple.

I frequently suffer from depression, irritability, hopelessness, cramps, bloating, constipation/diarrhea, crying spells, food cravings - normally chocolate or sweets, fatigue, and thoughts of suicide. These problems have been severe for the past 4 months. I started taking 20 mg of paroxetine, however the effects were too unbearable: drowsiness, dizziness, headaches, nausea, violent diarrhea, difficulty remembering things/forgetfulness, and inability to orgasm/low sex drive.  

I would like to take xanax, but benzo's are addictive and one may develope a dependency on them or even need the dosage to be stepped up. Withdrawls and tapering off them can be difficult.

I have stopped taking prescribed ssri's, and am thinking about taking an all natural approach.


I am nervous about the irregularity of my menses, and am fearful of not being able to conceive due to my irregularity, however, i am not taking the pill to conceive.

i read that this herbal supplement increases your chances of conceiving...i really wish anyone at all could shed some light on this for me. don't get me wrong i'd be ecstatic to have a baby, I am 27 - no children, and would love to be a mother, but i'm afraid right now isn't the time for it....nobody can ever really be prepared for this......but i work part time, i drive 40 miles a day to and from work, my boyfriend works part time, we can barely afford to take care of eachother let alone a kid, so perhaps its best to wait.

I thought spermicidal lube would be a great alternative but i read that you can get vaginal infections from too much use.

can anyone tell me what the chances are of conceiving while taking vitex and if it is ok to use spermicidal lube frequetly (each time 15 minutes before intercourse) ?



Sep 17, 2012 - 0 comments

Paroxetine 20 mg




Chastetree berry

i am currently on paroxetine 20 mg, nothing has changed for me since before i have taken this medication. I am really nuts! not to self diagnose myself, but i sincerely believe i may have PMDD, i read about it and have nearly every symptoms, and have been diagnosed with panic disorder and progesterone/estrogen imbalance. my periods are never normal, i've been off birthcontrol for 2 years - trying to let my body detox from them and regulate naturally, i have been sexually active for the past 2 and a half years, worries about conceiving pop up in my head since i'm 27 and have not had any children yet, i often get concerned that i will not be able to have any kids. I am always stressing, feeling overwhelmed, no engery, feel tired and fatigued, i feel over emotional or get angry easily, i sometimes feel i'm not good enough, i get crying spells, sometimes i may get a dizzy spell, and i have menstrual pain even when i'm not having a period.

Anyhow, i started 20mg of paroxetine Tuesday September 11, 2012

during this 6 days i've experienced the following symptoms:

- moderate headaches
- severe diahrrea
- nausea
- mild hallucinations (peripherals)
- severe memory loss (can't remember what i was doing, where i was going, what i was going to do, can't remember where i put things)
- innability / delayed orgasm
- dizziness
- Confusion

this is day 7, despite the fact that i have not had any emotional crying spells, or moodiness i have decided to stop taking them. i know it is better to give pills time but to be honest they are causing me more problems then they are worth.

i read about chastetree berrries and how they are used to alleviate symptoms or treat pmdd
and feel like i would be better off doing this. i need a medication that will not affect my job. I think maybe i'll consult a pharmicist about taking chastree berry and i will report back here what that does for me, i will also consult my doctor and see what it takes to check to see if i have PMDD.


Aug 27, 2011 - 1 comments

Dear God,

I feel down, I feel like life only gets harder and harder, I want to give up, forgive me. My panic
Disorder has not gotten better, I find that I'm still suffering from a roller coaster of emotions.
Nate and I separated after 5 years. I left California May 18, 2010 , moved in with my dad in Glendale, Az.
My dad and I don't have a good relationship, I get the vibe that all I am is charity to make him look
Good in front of others, I feel like I am a burden to him, and I've grown to despise him. I left all
My belongings in California, the only thing I was able to get was my flat screen tv. Nate would not let me have
The Xbox 360, PS3, couch or bedroom set I paid for I had to leave it all behind. I am unemployed now,
Things are hard, unemployment is giving me the run around, since I lost my job June 3, 2011 I only received
2 checks one for $259 and one for $518, I have not received anything for august, and now I'm finding out
That the next check I'm going to receive for 2 weeks is only $189, all my bills are 3 months passed due, I don't have
Food to eat in the fridge or pantry, my car got a flat tire and its gonna be $130, to replace, and I feel so loaded down with uncertainty and stress. I have no choice but to donate blood for money, and to go to a food bank to get food...and I need medication for my panic disorder but can't afford to go, and the dilema of getting my medical chart transferred from kaiser in California to cognac in Arizona has been exhausting. Despite my struggles, there has been a lot of good to come out of all of this, Alex is standing faithfully by my side, he is managing to keep a roof over our head and the electricity is still on, I know it is hard for him cuz he only works part time. I love him so much, please hear our cries to you Dear God, please hear us when we call out to you. There are many of us on here at medhelp, trying to draw strength and encouragement from eachother please hear us father and help us through our tribulations.