I usually use a CBE Fertility monitor, but I have not gotten pregnant with it, and actually I know that it is not correct some of the time. I had a cyst a few months back and had a 40 day cycle, but yet my monitor said that I O on CD 14, which I know isn't right because I didn't get my temperature shift until CD 29.....So I decided to buy the OPK's with the smileys and today is CD 12 and I gt a smile this morning :) I am so happy!! My monitor didn't have me at peak though....but I am still going with the smiley's!! I hope that this is it!!

Things have gotten a little better for me...I actually feel like my Dr is doing her best to try to help me. I was on clomid last cycle and nothing happened and I am on it again this cycle.If I don't get preggers this cycle we are going to try clomid 1 more cycle and if nothing then, she wants me to have an HSG done and DH S/A! So I am praying that this is the cycle that our little miracle will be conceived!! I've have waited so long to get another BFP!! And if we get a BFP this cycle it should be due around my MIL's B-day!! That would be awesome especailly if it would be a girl cause she doesn't have any granddaughters!! All of us would be happy with either gender!!

Well I am keeping my fingers crossed!! Good Luck to everyone!!!

As I sit here looking at my christmas tree...Hubby is at work...so I'm all alone. I look at that teddy bear ornament that reads "lil angel". I set and wonder what it would be like. As of this christmas my child would be 6 months old. I know everything happens for a reason and god will bless us one day, but I just don't understand why this had to be so hard for us! Having a miscarriage is one of the hardest thing that I have every been through.. It has gotten a little easier, but there is not a day that I don't think about my baby. This would have been the first christmas for it...and it's kind of hard, just thinking of what I'd be doing right now. I wouldn't be lonely! I would be enjoying every minute of being a mother. I would have had twice as many present to wrap....and seeing the joy on my stepsons face of getting to share christmas with a sibling instead of by himslef... Well I pray for all of us that the holidays will get better and we will have something to look forward to in the future. The only thing that has came good out of my fertility problem is that it is making me stronger..as a woman and as a mother one day. I learned not to take  things for granted!  It's not always going to be there. Cherish everyone and everything! Well good luck to everyone...Merry Christmas!