I found the morning quite difficult. When I left, I was immediately picturing Amberley - his death was so sudden (Pet rat developed a severe abscess and possible septicaemia - had to be euthanased. This was only a week after Joy died suddenly.). Reasonable journey, but had to get taxi from Tonbridge. Came home - found London missing - then almost no remains - worst case of RDS I've seen. Can't share on NFRS because of adverse comments previously etc. Mark collected 'body', Severe suicidal thoughts - rang Samaritans.