I have gotten my period 3 times since I gave birth 4 months ago. The first time was 8 weeks after delivery. Then 3 weeks after that it showed up again. This time I had almost a 40 day cycle ( i was expecting it on day 30)
I guess things are still trying to go back to normal. Well in the middle of the night on sunday, like around 3am, my hubby wakes me up freaking out because he had a dream that I was pregnant and I was apparently telling my mom how excited I was and I couldn't wait....he said when I get up in the morning to go get a preg. test and make sure. For my hubby to wake me up the middle of the night, I knew he was being serious because he is a heavy sleeper. So by morning I was so scared...because I had these weird feelings and I was so nauseous. I was really freaking out...because the last time I had a cycle that was that off was before James and I got married! (2 years ago) So when I woke up I tried to forget about it and was just hoping I would get my cycle. I ran out in the afternoon to get a test, came back, peed on the stick and put it down and didn't want to look at it. I sat there for a minute...then proceeded to wipe myself and BOOM! It was my period...haha. (I guess that's why I felt so sick!) I looked at the test and it was negative. Now I am not saying I wouldn't have been happy if I was pregnant again, but Jeremiah just turned 4 months and I want to focus on him right now and give my body time to recover. My midwife told me to wait at least a year so that my body can recover properly. I was just so scared! I guess we will be more careful in the future so this doesn't happen. eeeek! Hopefully my cycle will get back to normal soon. I use to be so regular...every 27-29 days, so this is so weird to me!
But on another note, Jeremiah just turned 4 months old on monday!! I cannot believe it! Where does the time go...seriously!! My little baby isn't so little anymore! He smiles and giggles all the time! And lately he just wants mommy....he even looks for me. Or sometimes he cries when someone else has him and I come over and pick him up and he immediately stops...it makes my heart melt! =)  I love being a mom....Jeremiah is such a wonderful baby and I didn't know I could love him so much. I love when he wakes up in the morning and lifts his head up from his bed and gives me a HUGE smile! Just makes my day!! He does that every morning now and never cries when he wakes up in the morning. He knows mommy will be right there. =) He is still nursing great...no problems there. I give him raw yogurt from time to time, which he absolutely loves now that he knows how to eat! He is just about 26 inches long now and weighs 18 pounds. He  wears 9-12 month clothing and onsies have to be 12-18 months. crazy!! That's my big boy!! =) I'm pretty sure I'll be seeing a tooth in the next month or so. =) Wow...time is just flying! I love seeing him change. Daddy is so proud of his little man and can't wait until he can teach him to ride dirt bikes, play football and do manly things together! =)  I love my family!!

I can't believe I am so close to holding this precious little baby. I have waited so long for this and now it's almost here!! I am beyond excited and just trying to keep myself busy until I get those labor pains! I am pretty sure I was having some contractions last night. I was in some pain, but not terrible. It did radiate around my back which I have never experienced before, as well as some pressure and having to pee like every 20 min!! I know I am getting close now and feel so ready for this! =) I am just praying  I have a smooth and *wonderful* labor! =)

Okay so I go for my 3d/4d u/s on wed. I am so excited about this since I haven't seen my lil' bugger since s/he was 8 weeks!!! wow. I'm sure the baby will look so different from then. =) I am just having a hard time with finding out the sex. Since this is my first baby, I really want to be suprised, but on the other hand, a part of me is dying to know. I am going to have the techinician put it in an envelope for me and we'll see how long I can hold out. I am beginning to think it would be so special to just be suprised! But I know the u/s will not be a waste of time! I do want to see what the lil' bugger looks like! lol. =) Hopefully I won't catch a glimpse of the genital area! haha. I mean, I only have 79 more days....I have made it this far without knowing the sex....what's 2 more months? Am I crazy??? LOL. We'll see what happens. I know for a fact whenever I have my second child, I am going to find out the sex...my husband doesn't mind that but he said, this is our firstborn, it should be extra special! I totally agree, so I think I am going to wait until the baby is born! =) that way I don't accidentally blurt it out to someone or even my husband...I would feel so bad! =)

I am just about 26 weeks here! I am so huge, or at least that's how it looks!! haha. Almost there!!