So Im a little PO'd...got a call from the RE's office spoke to a nurse, not the one I normally deal with this one is not as nice..and she laughed and said oh you were supposed to wait 2cycles..I said to her umm thats not what I was told before. I had my 1st cycle Oct 30th..( I still had beta of 7 I believe when I started my period and my period was normal length and everything).and I said to her that your office told me since I wasnt far along and barely preggo there was no reason I had to wait so long...My last beta was 61 when I started to miscarry,
Like I dont have enough to worry about!
Trying to hold onto my sisters words of things happen for a reason and take it one day at a time...GRRRRRR! I really hate seeing a specialist...They want to know everything right away and they put the fear in you before you know anything!
Normal Doc's- dont even see you until your further along and some women I know who were farther along then me and betas much higher were told to try right away to..so IDK what to think....
Ugh!!! Deep breaths lily deep breaths!

So I got my 2nd bfp today..and its so funny cause when I got my 1st in June it was a few days after a wedding we went to...Now I got my 2nd bfp and we just went to a wedding last Sunday...I told DH we need to go to more weddings LOL...

Well its August, the 1st month I officially got to try after I lost my little peanut! I knew it wasnt going to be easy to get pregnant again..It took over 3yrs the 1st time...but I did have hope that maybe I'd be lucky and have some good come out of all the pain and disappointment...
I guess there is nothing left to do but wipe the dust off after being kicked to the ground and pick up and get ready for next month!
After all this time I just want some good to happen to me...

Ugh I swear when it rains it pours!! Get a call today from the nurse telling me that the doc doesnt think my hcg numbers are going down sufficently! So have another blood test on Monday instead of Wed next week! I asked what that meant and she tells me that sometimes the placenta can leave behind some cells that just wont die! So I will have to go in for an IV (medication) treatment in the office next week!
I was just starting to convice myself that nothing more bad can happen and trying to ease my stress and fustration and  this has to happen to bring it back up in my face! I am so aggrevated and stressed out as it is...I just want to feel like im moving forward with the ttc! And its taking forever! Ive never wanted AF to come more than now! At least if AF came I'd feel like things were moving forward and have something to look forward to! Ive just been feeling like Im stuck in this never ending nightmare for the past 3wks! The days go by but I feel like its the same day over and over again! I just want to scream! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!