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Feb 12, 2011 - 0 comments
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Loneliness

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anger

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sadness

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hopelessness



Today has had some good points. A couple of laughing moments. But the overall mood is one of total sadness, loneliness, anger. I just want to rip somebody's head off. Or beat a wall. I can't seem to cry enough. I HATE THIS FEELING!  I don't even have words to describe how I feel.

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10/08/09

Oct 08, 2009 - 0 comments
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Pain

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spasms

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rupture

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spine

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muscles



Today I am taking the Tizanidine for the muscle spasms.  The pain in my back feels like someone trying to pull the spine out. Not one of my better days.  Still feels like a ruptured disk.

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Here we go again.

Oct 05, 2009 - 0 comments
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neurosurgeon

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Low back pain

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Spinal fusion

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Pain

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recurring

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Reproductive Health



Back is hurting while not moving. Feeling that same terrible pain when I stand in one place ( like trying to brush my teeth.  I think I know what's going on. At least this time I have better knowledge of my body and what it is supposed to do and not do. No use in going to see the neurosurgeon until it hurts so bad I can't stand it. I just hoped this would get better.  It didn't.  And my husband knows too. I am so sorry that he is being put into the position of taking care of me. He is such a good man.  

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I have decided what I am going to do about my disk

Aug 20, 2008 - 0 comments
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Spinal fusion

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disk replacement

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spinal stimulator



I have comtemplated about what to do regarding my disk. I feel like the Spinal Stimulator is not the right choice at this point. I have heard too many bad experiences about Spinal Fusion, so I think that I will just have the disk replaced.  At least I'm moving forward in a way.  I still have a long way to go though.