I know this is going to be a touchy subject for most, but there is a journal here for a reason, and im going to take advantage of it.

I see a lot of postings about how teens and kids are trying to get pregnant. Yes it's sad and it's uncalled for, and some of these kids' parents need a good slap in the face for a wake up call. But as I have said before there is always going to be different opinions on this subject, just like there are different reasons why these kids and teens are getting pregnant and having sex at such a young age. Wether we like it or not, our children will experiment with different things at different ages and stages of their lives. Teen girls and teen boys often experiment with sex at a young age in their own home, it's called masturbation. It's hard for us parents who actually care about our children's future to have a leash on them 24/7. I know I cannot be in school with my kids making sure they are hanging out with kids I approve of. It's also hard on parents who both have to work, and cannot be at home all the time with their children, and most daycares do not accept 15 or 16 yr olds. And are you going to have a 15 or 16 yr old babysit your 15 or 16 yr old child while your at work after they get home from school?...I don't think so. Even those parents who say, well my child goes to the boys and girls club after school....well guess what, They can get ahold of drugs at a place like that aswell, and they can also have sex in a place like that.

What about single moms? I know my step mom was a single parent for 16 years before meeting my father, and she had to raise 4 kids on her own. She couldn't stay home to make sure that her daughter(my step sister who infact just had a baby) wasn't throwing parties or drinking or having sex, infact she never thought her straight A daughter, Mormon at that, very athletic daughter was out having sex. And believe me this woman had one hell of a leash on her kids, and her daughter still got pregnant. She was on birthcontrol, but made the decision to stop taking it behind her moms back.

Im just sick of hearing people complain about this topic in all honesty. We sit here and complain that these parents need to get a hold of their children and do this and do that...why not just worry about yourself and your children, and stop worrying about others? Stop complaining about it because it's not going to change the world. The world isn't going to change because we are upset or mad, or disagree.

The fact is, there ARE kids out there having sex, there ARE parents out there who could careless about it aswell. It's not ever going to change, no matter how mad we get about it. While we are sitting here typing journals and posts that are the length of football fields, our kids could be in their rooms, looking at that playboy their buddy snuck over, or texting some boy from school and deleting the texts before mom and dad can read it.

Our kids that we think we have a hold of could be doing the same exact thing right under our noses and we would never know because we are to worried about how other teens are having sex, and other parents could careless.

I know that a journal like this of this subject will get diverse responses, some say * no freedom for kids* others say that there needs to be *freedom* for our kids, and no matter who posts what, or who thinks what, I am not going to sit here and judge them by their thoughts or opinions on this subject. I came here to meet friends, and get help and offer help to those who need it, I did not come here to be judged or to judge, because I believe there is only 1 person who can rightfully judge anyone, and that is the man upstairs.

I am a mother of 4, and Im sick and tired of being judges by the way I WANT and FEEL I need to raise my children. There have been many women on here who have bit the heads off of other mothers because their way of raising their kids is different. If you want to judge someone.....look in the mirror. If you think you are any better than those parents out there letting their kids have sex...think again. Your just as guilty, because your busy worrying about what other do, think, and feel, instead of worrying about yourself and your children.

So here I am 31 weeks and 1 day pregnant with a beautiful little boy. Im super excited about bringing another baby home, and this pregnancy has been going by super fast and pretty much uncomplicated, besides a few health issues I had before I concieved.

BUT....There is always a but! lol

There are 3 specific symptoms of pregnancy that I would be happier without. Don't get me wrong, it is all worth it in the long run, but man oh man these things are driving me into a deep depression. I try to think about how im almost done, and soon I will have baby Conner laying in my arms, but one thing is for sure....it can't come soon enough!

My first complaint- Aggrivation.....I get aggrivated so darned easily, and when I do get aggrivated at something stupid, it makes me more aggrivated lol. It's like the circle of death. Im usually a very easy going person, I do however have a temper, but im usually a decent person to speak to and I can deal with a lot of stress before I explode. But being pregnant and dealing with hormones make me soooooo cranky.

Second- Frusteration.....and not just any type of frusteration either. Im talking about sexual frusteration...yes ladies im talking about the big *O*. I have not been satisfied with my sex life, and it has nothing to do with the hubby, he is great in this field by all means lol, but it's me. It takes me a while to get turned on, foreplay is okay but I cannot get *wet* (sorry tmi)- and achieving an orgasm gets harder and harder every time. Not to mention the fact that I cannot be in any position except on my side (spooning). I love being on top, but if I sit straight up *IT* goes to deep, if I lean forward to prevent the deepness I squish my belly. I pretty much like the freaky stuff lmao, and I haven't been able to be my sexual self in a very very long time. My hubby is your typical man, and is satisfied with just a boob in his mouth lmao but im so tired of not being able to be satisfied. I know I am not going to be able to wait the 6 weeks after Conner is born lol, I will be ready and willing probably in a week lol.

Last but not least! CONSTIPATION!- That is the #1 symptom that irritates the pee out of me. It seems as if im okay 2 days out of the week, and the rest of the week I cannot go potty! It feels like im going to have a nice BM but as soon as my little cheekers hit that toilet seat, it seems as though they are terrified and refuse to come out. I have tried everything, literally everything. I have tried metamucil, stuff with stimulants, enimas, the list goes on and on. I can't even begin to get regular on prescribed stool softners or enimas. I have a very good balanced diet, and do not take iron supplements, so I have no idea what the issue is. I have never ever ever in my life dealt with constipation this bad. I have literally felt like a walking (scuse my french) Terd for the past 8 months lol. Hell I have even tried prayer, and I dont think I have ever prayed so hard in my entire life!

I have officially lost my belly button...lol Instead of being a cute little outie, it is flat and just looks like part of my belly now. I have to look in a mirror to see it, because I haven't been able to see the poor thing for about a month now lol.

I also got quite the rude comment from my beloved hubby lol. I didnt take much offence to it, because my husband has always had a dry humor about him. But here is how it happened. Laughing is allowed! lol

I have a stand up shower with glass doors instead of a shower in my bathtub. I barely fit in the bathtub anymore so washing is a hudini trick all in it's own. Anyways....In order to wash, especially my legs or feet, I have to turn rear end to the glass, and bend over to wash my legs or use my pumice stone for my feet. I was bent over butt on the glass using my pumice stone and wouldnt you know it...Hubby shows up to go to the bathroom. He looks and see's my butt cheeks squished up against the glass....and instead of saying * what a beautiful rear honey* my lovely husband says * Holy Sh!t babe, you A$$ has gotten HUGE!!!*

I was so dissapointed in him to say the least lol, but I know he meant it out of love, because if he didnt I have an iron skillet with his name all over it lmao ;)

Im amazed at how time has flown by with this pregnancy. It was almost like yesturday that I pee'd on my stick and it came out positive, and here I am almost 30 weeks. I have been enjoying every moment of every day with this pregnancy, and as time goes by I only grow more anxious to see my little man. I never thought I would have been blessed with another child, and although im terrified at the thought of being a new mommy again, im so thankful that I can bring in another life to my family. I can't believe it is almost August, and then September will come and go until October gets here and my sweet baby will finally be placed in my arms. It will be my last journey into motherhood, as hubby and I have done prepared to not have any more children. We didnt plan on having this baby, but the good lord blessed us for a reason, and I know this baby is going to be my family's miracle child.

Im so anxious to see what my husband and I created together, and I cant believe that we have been chosen to give life to one of his creations. I am truley honored to be given this gift.

1 more week.....and I will be officially 30 weeks to the day!